Loads of invisible stuff happened for the past few days. I feel like dog poo.

Saturday
I drove down to KLIA alone…yeah alone…to pick my aunt from Singapore. I was afraid at first. But driving alone, in Kesas, over the speed limit, is very very relaxing. Very little cars, smooth straight road, my mp3 player with me (my radio got stolen remember), the only thing that was missing was a faster car. I don’t know why…some how when I was driving, for a split second I wished I had a faster car, a faster car so I would surely die if I crashed, intentionally or unintentionally. I picked my aunt up, and drove back. Dropped her to HSBC near Amcorp Mall, then went back to DJ to pick my sis, then back over to HSBC to pick my aunt. I don’t know why but I actually didn’t what to stop driving. ….driving makes me relax, but makes me think at the same time. I felt sad…sad for myself. Left for Ipoh late in the afternoon. …Wanted to ask if I could drive. But I didn’t dare cos I knew my dad wouldn’t let me. I dented his car just last week remember?

My kong kong (grandpa) is better, he’s good actually =) He’s out of the hospital already =) But we are all still worried about him cos he doesn’t seem to be changing his eating habits.

Went down to Menglembu for dinner/supper. Super a lot of yum yum food. I ate three types of chicken wings. ‘Chee pow kai’ (paper wrapped and fried), deep fried, and honey. Ate ‘chu chap chok’ (pork porridge). Also ate curry ‘chee cheong fun’ (a type of noodles) with chu pei (fried pork skin). I was stuffed…but the food didn’t even make be feel a little bit more happy.

I couldn’t sleep again.

Today
I woke up early. Ate a ‘woon chai kou’, yam cake and a few other types of kuih for breakfast. I have no idea how come I could eat so much. I ate like a pig the day before…and yet again today. Went to visit my great grand mother (my grandma’s side) after breakfast. Then went for lunch at a road side stall. Ate fried noodles and one kind of ‘sai kot’ kuih. Nice. Went to visit my other great grand mother after that.

Got calls and messages from my DCCN members. Progress like 0% for my part… and I think -20% for a certain member. Start to worrying again.

Now I’m back home. I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep again tonight. Can’t sleep…so … I’m determine to finish off my DCCN work today.

I’m pathetic. I’m still sad for no *f* reason. When will this PMS go away?