OH MY GOD! I'm the most irresponsible group leader/member and student alive! I forgot I had a presentation!

I woke up at 9 this morning. I had no idea why I woke up so early. I happily did my whole geek morning routine and then head back to my room. Washed my face and brush my teeth. (I was still in my Pee Jays) I dump all my notes on Tesco.com and started reading them for my assignment. Then at about almost 11am, Seng Kuin rang me. I was wondering why she would call me.

Seng Kuin: Eh where are you?
Me: *...thinks a bit* *FUCKKKKKK PRESENTATION!!!!* OH FUCK. *I said it aloud* I'm still at home. Ok I'm my way
Seng Kuin: Har?!!! Still at home! Come quick!
...toot toot toot...

I dumped everything, wore what ever APIIT clothes than came to sight, took my phone, purse and car + house keys and dashed out of the house. 'Fei chi lok' ("Flew") college all the way. Heavy traffic and long waits at the traffic lights were...ARGHGHGHGH. I was 10 minutes late for the presentation. Thank god my lecturer (Mr.Mohan) was 5 minutes late, so he and my group members had to only wait for 5 minutes. Seng Kuin said Mohan wasn't too happy about group members being late for an important presentation, but his face expression changed when Mohan saw/knew that the late comer was me (The 'responsible' class representative...HAHAHAHA). Phew.

Anyways, I was still very unhappy even Mohan said it was OK (because I know its NEVER EVER OK to be late!) and at least I took the effort to come (I lied that my dad's car wouldn't start. Dead batt again). I didn't present well too because I panicked about being late. I left all my que cards and presentation notes at home. I left out a whole bunch of technical and hardware points. I'm very very disappointed at myself. My research focused so much on hardware and its implementation and yet during the presentation I didn't even mention anything on it. The way I presented was also shameful =( I couldn't catch my breath, I could think properly, my words were just coming out of my mouth with no structure. Aie...shameful man the way I brought myself. I couldn't catch Mohan's attention when I was presenting, I think I was rather presenting to the monitor than to him. ARGH! I paniced! *stutter stutter*

I have nothing to say to myself already. I've disappointed my group members, Mohan and myself. I have projected myself as someone who’s shoes I wouldn't never want to be in. I have less respect to people who are not serious with their work, and yet, I let myself be in that position. If I was in the industry right now, I would have gotten my arse kicked out of the organization I'm working for.

I'm going to get shit marks for this presentation. I am F'crewed.