They dont call it Honors degree for nothing. People have to really really work their ass up for it. Now i know why people say party while you can cos degree is all about work and research.

My panic attack lasted until this morning. I couldn't really sleep yesterday cos i was still thinking about my final year project topic. I went to college today even tho i dont have classes. Had to go anyway to hand in the rough proposal. Its all decided now (or maybe not, my cous told me its still possible to change). My title is Chatterbot. Yeah, i'm have to come up with a chating robot program in about 6 months. Its so so not easy. I have to learn languages that i dont know, have to learn and understand concepts so my chatterbot will work. Damn i hate degree. ....correction, i hate the individual final project! ...I don't want to fail my project. I can't fail it. I cant.

Have you ever felt so paniky in your life until you feel like vomiting? I was like that yesterday. I still feel like that now. I can't help but think negative. This is so not me. Where's the confident me 2 weeks ago?

Reality is starting to hit me real bad. I need help. All this is bad for me.