Why do I blog?

Today's entry is kind of inspired by Mr.Kiasu's blog entry on Why are you blogging?

Why am I blogging? So many reasons, so so many reasons. At first I started off as a 'wannabe' blogger. I only cared for hits. I only cared for increased traffic. I tried to put as much "cool" contents into my entries for that. I was such 'lala blogger' in the past... and maybe even now.

When I read up my archives now... I realised I have changed my blogging style. I put more of me in my blog. I put more what I thought, I put more of my feelings, and I realised that I cherish strangers who was reading my blog, especially once that understand me, and feel me thru my words.

Now back to the question, why am I blogging? Well one thing is for sure... something that did not change, I want feedback. I enjoy comments; I like it when people share their stories and their mind with me. I just like the communication. Or maybe I just like the attention, I was a self centred blogger, and still is.

But then blogging is not just only that to me. My blog knows me. I laugh to my blog, I cry to my blog. My blog is the only place I can be in peace, the only place where I can say my thing. I'm a little like Alice also I think. I seldom share my problems with friends because I'm afraid I'll bog them down. But my blog can't be bog down, so I think I depend on my blog a lot. Again... too many reasons. These days my blog is just like a buffer, storing all my excess thoughts. But this buffer ....well... I can't express a lot of myself in here anymore.

Too many people I know read my blog. It's over exposed. But I am to be blamed for that. When I was a 'lala blogger' I promoted my blog, too many people I know reads this... yes, including you. I can't freely express myself here anymore. Sometimes I just want to bla everything out but when I think of the consequences.... I have to hold back.

I have been wanting to abandon Big Head Big Hat many times before. But I couldn't bring myself to do it because I have developed a love for Big Head Big Hat. I have been thru so much here. My life, my family and friends.

If one day I should abandon this blog……