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Actually... can someone really change?

Till today I still can't answer some questions. It's difficult, because I can't put an answer to feelings. The clock will soon stop ticking, what will happen next? Maybe deep inside I'm just waiting for it to die so I can move on. Why am I so committed to the clock? Sometimes I think I'm so stupid and too naive to actually hope that things will be different.

Nostalgic feeling and confusion again today. But the traffic jam and good down to earth conversation really helps. I wished we were stuck in the car longer.

I guess it's the memory I miss. The good old times. The "those were the days". I feel gay when I talk about it. It's so sad that you have all the ingredients, but you broke your pot.

I still wonder about it actually, but still disappointment eventually. I guess that what you get when you set too high of a standard. But sometimes its not meeting the target, not about meeting the goal. It's the process of meeting it, the learning, the determination. So so sad to you give up. So so sad to listen to your excuses.

So I guess it's always best to tell me the truth out front. Really hate finding it out myself.

Felt guilty to others. Sorry that you bunch have to put up with me. Especially the you few that I think I was being so selfish and self centered. But it was me, the sorrow… the alcohol made it worst. Sorry I didn’t think of your feelings.

Honestly *sign* ... a pinch of hope maybe? …Am I kidding myself? One more month won't kill. I've already gone through the whole process. It's just one more month then I can untie the ribbon.

*feelingsss…oh ohhhh feelings, what about my feelings… feelings of hate* ….LOL ok so crappy ending, but I still love this Off Spring song. Totally no relations to my post but the tune is just so feelinggssss ….