You know, sometimes I'm jealous of people who are able to express their feelings without any problem. Jin always tells me that communication is the key element in any 'ships', relationships, friendships, even warships. But why is it sometimes just so hard for me to express myself directly? I think I don't have a "You think too much" problem, but I have a "You keep everything to yourself" problem.

It's just typical of me actually, I just don't know how to open my mouth. Sometimes when I think, I have it all figured out. I know what I want to say, I know what I want to ask, I know roughly what I'm going to expect. But I don't know what every time when the time comes, I'll chicken out or postpone the topic I firstly intended to bring up. And at the end, nothing is being said. All is left behind my head, into a cancerous cell that is not going to kill me, but make me insane.

Why do I find it hard? What am I afraid of? Am I being too kind? Am I being too timid? Am I having a speech dysfunction? What do I need... a break?