but definitely no coin flipping

It's the end of the year again... and like always, December is the month where I do most of my "What have I done and what do I want?" reflection in life. I always have had no problems coming up with New Year resolutions. But I think I will have much problems this year.

And again.... it boils down to the same ol' same ol' topic. I don't know what I want.

Flip a coin? ...again? Nope not again, not ever.

We all have to make decisions. It won't go away so why not just face it and get over it.

I believe for most of us, what’s holding us back is facing the consequences of the decisions we make. What will be the outcome? Will it be in favors of us? Or will be apposing us?

I can tell that I have less and less courage to face my decisions these days. I ask tons of questions, and do too much of evaluation of my decisions until it brings me to a "kookoo" phase like I'm at right now. And still at the end of the day, a decision that I have to make, can’t be made!

No one can help me, really. People can shove ideas, comments and their experience at me but I'm not all ears right now. My skin is too thick, and skull to dense to absorb. In other words, I'm still god damn suborn to listen. (especially to some people…that I won’t mention here) I shall do it my way... and so my way it is. Erm... I have to figure what my way is first… but definitely no coin flipping.

Do you think 4th of December is still too early to think of my new year's resolutions? ...I think I have to start early this year. Life has been hectic and complicating.

Leave or not to leave? That is also one of the one hundred unanswered questions.