Sunday, March 27, 2005

bitch arse rude daughter

It’s so sickening when my parents argue over the most trivia matters. Ish. Sometimes I wonder if I’m being a very rude daughter when I interrupt their argument and shut them up. I would definitely get a slap in the face if I was younger.

I used to shut myself out from all these arguments last time. I didn’t like when they are making a lot of noise\fuss about everything. When my parents argue and hit on each others ego, I would usually stay in my room and turn on the TV or stereo. Sometimes when I’m using my PC, and they start the cat and dog fight, I would just resume my work and put on my headphones. …Actually by letting them argue, I know it makes things worst, but I don’t know why I just didn’t care in the past. Maybe they argue so often until it’s like a norm for me. Sometimes I don’t even get worried/bother when they argue. I get more irritated.

When I was a kid, my parents would always tell me and my siblings to “Don’t fight today ah, no arguments ah, today is a happy day, want to fight then fight tomorrow”. Even on New Years Eve, my parents will tell us to tolerate each other for the new years, “Don’t start the new year with arguments ok”. My parents have become hypocrite.

I don’t know man… maybe I was too young and selfish to bother about all this things in the past. But now, when I choose to take notice of things, well…. I notice a lot that I dislike. Since then I have actually noticed that my parents actually argue a lot. I always believe there is no real ‘happy family’. There’s no perfect family. There’s no perfect marriage either. If you don’t agree with me, …well don’t be naïve, open your eyes my dear. There are bound to be arguments and extremely sad and depressing moments in every house hold. But all this arguments and fights are really taxing on our (me and my sis) brains. It’s not easy to stay invisible when my parents fight. I wished I have stayed blur on household matters, at least I can have a peace of mind at home.

It’s so ‘sien’ when they argue. Very very irritating too sometimes. My parents actually argued before dinner during my dad’s and sis’s birthday celebration. And the same thing happened today for my mom’s birthday celebration. I lost my cool and became a very rude daughter. I didn’t want to side neither my mom nor dad, because I was actually pissed at both of them for spoiling the mood. So… I gave really rude and sarcastic but true remarks about them and their arguments. You know what the worst thing? I didn’t fell sorry after I said those words. Both my parents were lost of words and it was all silent after than.

I have no idea what was going on with me. I’m becoming very rude as I grow older. I’m losing my patience. I have to do something about this. I don’t want to be a bitch arse rude daughter. I have to be more respectful.

7 Comments:

At 10:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

same goes here get used to it, maybe that's the way they communicate lol adults are hard to understand just like not much ppl can understand urself rite?

Happy family i think happens but unfortunately not on me. They are my parents i respect them and hope they living happiness in every single day and i will always love them.

 
At 10:44 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

bc bee
hmmm sounds like u have had enough of that stupid arguments.well done teckiee, from today onwards your parents will not treat u like a kid anymore.all these time i had encouraged u to speak up whenever theres something u feel uneasy about.u did the right thing.i m proud of u *hugs*

theres always a limit of respect u can withstand.same goes for me thats why i always like to stand inbetween arguments n shut my parents up.they argue over a "witch" thats all... every time i hear the same stuff as i get older,now i've got the power to scold them back hehehe.i know my parents will make up for it but during the fights i just cant sit n watch them fight,last time my dad hit my granpa quite long ago when i was 10 years old.the longer the fight...the situation gets worst.

well i do go overboard abit but i try my best not to be physical ,i refrain from curses but watever u do, do your best to cool off the situation quickly.

happy ending for my family.the Fucking "WITCH" has been sacked last month(she tormented my family for 10 years already).wEeEE i can see the dark clouds clearing for a bright sunny day for many many years to come

 
At 10:45 PM, Blogger スロ / Bernat said...

This happens everywhere. It's normal you have enough of this. You want happy parents life, you want a better life. They have to respect you and your sister, also. They have to make an effort too.

 
At 1:51 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I thinking interrupting them and being rude are 2 different things. It is hard to suppress our own anger, but when we don't we become no more than what they are. We can try though. That's what we can do.. try, try, try

 
At 4:08 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i see someone's beliefs is changing. Normally when that happens, the persons life will change as well.

Everything has a mixture of good and bad. Nothing is one sided.
"It takes both sunshine and rain to make a rainbow." true?
That's just how things are in life. It's a vicious cycle and nothing we do can stop it..well unless everyone was brainwash to think alike (some movie i saw- which of course will never happen..i hope :p)


Some people are experiencing the same thing which you just shared. To some people, it may be rude/rebelious/etcetc..but if we choose to ignore and adopt the so called malaysia Chinese culture "children should be seen and not heard" would that have help the situation instead?

just frankly speaking, i see someone having the caurage to stand up to something for a right cause.

It was a very "strong" direct approach to say the least so people may not see your the true intention rather they focus on your approach/action. Perhaps in future, you could try a "softer" approach. They are your family anyway.

There are other options to take even if you choose to confront the problem itself.

crap! 4am gtg.. Take care ya

 
At 7:49 AM, Blogger fishtail said...

Your parents have reached a point in their communication when they no longer seem to care about quarelling in front of their children. It's natural of you to feel angry about that, but it may be more helpful if you can speak to them individually in future instead of losing your cool.

 
At 10:23 PM, Blogger teckiee said...

Thank you all for your comments.

 

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