Loneliness VS aloneness

Today was over flowing with shit. Nope, no pun intended. HAHAHAHA damn shy man. Thank god!!! ...and then in the LRT when I was coming back from work, I saw the cutest most Kawaii Japanese baby boy in my life! He was looking so blur sitting on his stroller. He's head was tilted to his left and he stared at me for a moment. He blink once... blinked twice. AHHHH so CUTE!!!! His cheeks were so rosy and puffy! Just feel like carrying him and hugging him! Hehehehe I didn't of course, I won't want to be on the headlines on tomorrow's paper with "Mad woman on the lose hugging cute baby boys". Too bad I didn't have a camera with me... I wonder if my baby boy will be as cute as him... that's if I plan to have one.

Anyway, the whole me wanting to be alone thing is getting a little interesting. I started searching for articles after I read an email from Alwin. There are two interesting links on his pages. I came across some other interesting links myself.

Coping With Loneliness (A real life story)
I often tell people in my singles retreats that we won't make good partners for anyone in this life if we can't be a good partner to ourselves first....learn to befriend your loneliness. Think of it as your teacher, and ask it for wisdom.

Solutions for Loneliness
There is no definitive answer about what is the correct amount of time to spend with people vs. being along....Red flags; those who require YOU to make a lot of sacrifices or consistently can't come up with their part of the work, money, ideas, etc.

The One in the Mirror: See What You Truly Are. A book written by Ramesh S. Balsekar
It is only such an awakening of Divine Intelligence, which ends selfishness - the cause of loneliness of the self.

Although these articles are not what I'm actually looking for (..and I don't think it relates to me), but interesting stuff about loneliness and aloneness. The most interesting article I found was this. The Layers of Aloneness I'm still in the midst of reading all of it, but I think there's something in this article that would state that me being what i am now, is actually me feeling loneliness. Then again I don't know...We become so detached we feel no aloneness? Got to read the whole thing. Very interesting stuff...at least to me. You can also download the overview here.

I'm thinking of this mediation session and Zhong went with his parents once. (Zhong you remember or not, you said you just sat there and kept quiet, no communication what so ever for the weekend. I think it was weird back then, but now I understand) I think I should attend one of them.