Ten Ten Ten Ten

What is 10 X 4? 40? No la.. look at the title la. It's ten ten ten tennnnnn. LOL.. ok lame and dry joke.. and so sorry for those who don't get it. Ten more days. (fishtail: the story will soon expose itself)

Gym is... well, good and bad I think. Work and the gym really drain all my energy. I don't have brain and body power to actually get anything else done, ..but on the other hand, I have been having many good night sleeps. I can just *poof* and go to sleep instead of thinking …

…thinking too much before I sleep. I'll plan events for the next day. I'll draft out in my head how my day should flow. I'll even actually dream a little about a meeting or presentation I have to lead if I have to. Bad huh... I guess I'm just a total control freak and a predictable person. If I plan my day's events, there won't be any surprise installed.

Thinking one day a head is one thing. Sometimes I find myself dreaming of what would come up in a week's or month's time. And.... I would sometimes think of preparations if the day really comes. LOL!

Often times I do also find myself reflecting on the current day's events. All the "do and don't" and the "did and did not do" and all the "what if I..." kind of questions. Sometimes I find myself regretting on things I did, or sometimes just getting upset (before I sleep!) with (most often) the tiniest little thing.

Is this actually bad?

I don't think I can stop thinking tho. I can't help it. I'm actually quite blur and ignorant during the day. All the "evil" plotting and decrypting is all done in a batch, before I sleep. Weird rite... but I have been like that since I can "think".

But no la, I don't think I'm that serious all the time. Sometimes I fantasies about me being something else. The "what if I was Amber MacArthur", or "What if my boss promotes me to Team Leader for the new review platform coming soon" or "What if he was my boyfriend?" Hehehe anf of course I control where this kind of dreams leads to and ends... so it's fun. HAHAHA...

Ah well... time to catch American Next Top Model!