Now I know why working husbands prefer their wives to stay at home, be the woman who cooks delicious dishes, cleans the house and give them pleasure (yeah you know what I mean).

I'm so worn out at work again. I just realised that my job is harder that it seems. The earlier 2 work area I did at work at spoon fed to me. All the information was collected for me, all I had to do was review following the procedures. But since yesterday, taking up the responsibility to review global operation servers, my mind and body have died'ed. I had to keep redoing my reviews because of mistakes I have made. I have to review 18 folders, each with 13 standard reports, and I'm at a back log reviewing them!

I do not only have to built reputation this time, but also to built up my own database of information and contacts across the globe by myself. This is not going to be easy. I'm starting panic already, but I have to do it, I know I can do it. I'm trying to be more independent at work too, don't want to bug my team lead with questions. If I can get pass this stage, it will be good for me in the future.

My project manager and supervisor is going to have a 1 to 1 interview with all of us again, for our 'self-assessment', to know where we stand, and to know if we are going to be permanent in the WISE-GSM team out team is permanently fixed in to CCSC (I think), another department upper in the department hierarchy. WISE-GSM is actually still project based, and when the project closes in late February or early March, the team will be permanent, and more work will then start pouring in. I know I'm being too ambitious, but I hope to be able to work with my team leaders and supervisor more closely when things start coming in.... if you know what I mean ;) Then again, I just hope I can be what the team needs and not be looked down on because of my age.

I have already filled in my self-assessment form, but I have only been in the team for a month, there's not much I can say about myself. I hope my team leaders put in a good word for me.

Going to catch up with lots of sleep today. 9++ hours of work made me sick. I wish I had a wife husband to pamper me until I get well. Hehehe Husbands… love your wives yah! *yawnn* nighty nite.