Apiit's server is down. I can't access the webspace, exchange and even PAGOL! Cannot submit my PPF. I guess i'll just have to submit it tomorrow. Anyways, i just confirmed my OT team today. All of us seems keen on doing the project. Noone seems to be a slacker...yet. I hope it stays that way. ...or maybe i'll be the one slacking off. Hahaha. But then again, i don't think i will. Have to be fair la. ..me is so lucky lucky.

Not so lucky at home tho. My skin is getting very sensitive these days. I used to be immune to mosquitoes bites, but not anymore. The little pesky blood suckers mutated themselves i think. They seem to be relesing more toxin bites. My legs and arms damn itchy now. Ish. My aunty's family coming over again. So i won't have a room to sleep again. =( . Got to child proof my room tomorrow. arghh.

The good thing is...muahahaha i'm going up to Genting for Lady Salsa! WEEEEEEEEEE!

Today sial like shit. Went to college to get all my stuff printed on the dot matrix. This fellar was printing like 8 over MB for documents man. That's like 60 over pages. Ish. Went to the other building opposite APIIT to have lunch. Can't stand the canteen food already. Jelak.

Hung out in the library and labs after that. But can't stand my sleepyhead already. If i stay in college i'll think i'll sleep there already. I'm all drained out from my cous's wedding yesterday. So i took the 3pm shutter bus to Bkt Jalil Lrt station. The bus came 15 late. ARGH. Then when i was on the Lrt (yeah..very long way back) i realised that my Discman batt was low on juice..almost empty...then poof...turned off. ARGH. When i reached Masjid Jamek it was raining cows and chickens! Took the tunnel over to Putra. Then with i reached Kelana I had to walk home in the drizzle. Got my sandals wet =( damn the puddles. Took my shower when i got home, wanted to sleep already. SO bloody tired. ...then i saw the pile of unfolded clothes. ARGH. Terpaksa fold. No mood to sleep already after that.

Went to sunway for dinner. Since i was in that area i drop by Pyramid. Got my thumbdrive there. A 128 handy Steno. When i left Pyramid only realised i kena waterfish. ARGH. $#@!. The lanyard wasn't in the box. But then damn no mood to return just to get it. Lanyard only ma...wadever la.

Drop by Kelana Giant to buy some junkfood to cheer myself up. They dont have marshmallows there?!? ARGH.

Kun...i need a hug.

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Happy Bufday Aaron! Happy Bufday Wai Kit!

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY GERBY! click!

I did nothing productive today...ROARRRR. Feels good to do nothing muahahaha.

Watched 3 shows in a row. From Hell is one sick show (if you have the imagination). I think if they would really show the dissected corpse, i'll puke. Watched Spirited Away, finally! The story was quite unique. All of that animator's (forgot the name) animes quite nice actually. I still remember the first time i watched Totoro. So cute hehehe. Di di ta...bo bo ba. hahaha. My tired movie was The 51st State. Quite a funny movie, starting Samuel L Jackson. It's about his drug (he's a chemist you see) the POS51. Some parts of the movie really lame but damn funny. But some part quite fake also. They have this scene on a footie match between Manchester and Liverpool. The scene was really fake, the crowd was even moving. I think they just fitted a picture behind only.

To everyone celebrating Deepavali tomorrow, especially my indian friends, HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

The project research briefing today was so boring. The guy sitting beside me was weird. He and his friends was like "eh u sit la..." "no no i dont want, u sit la". Both of them made it so obvious. Am i that scary? I wasn't gonna bite them. *haiss* My classmates...for the whole degree.

I went to look for my supervisor again down in Apiit@KL. Took the LRT there after the breifing. I think the trip there and back was the most relaxing trip ever. I didn't know what to say to my lecturer actually. I went down just for the sake of not canceling my appointment. When i sat in the meeting with him...i just told him everything that was on my mind at that time. There's a minute when i felt he was fed up. I can't blame him. I'm a difficult student. But at the end he told me "Ah ...just go ahead with it". Well...so there, i got my title approved. Of course, i still would have to add features to my title.

Whats my title? Well, don't laugh. I know it's easy. But i have had enough of this shit. I can't bring myself to that Gambatteh state anymore. I'm doing a information portal on abortion focusing on Malaysia. Sounds easy. Cos it is easy. Anyways, the portal will include a search within the portal, a forum, and a kononnya knowledgebase expert system. All i have to do now is to do my research on the language i should use. I've heard that PHP dont make good search engines. I might be wrong. So...its all research from here.

I hope that everyone else is doing better than me.

One more thing. I got my OT grouping today. I have no idea who my teammates are. I just hope they are all perfectionist workaholics and not some lame shit leech slackers.

Excuse the bitching, i shouldn't complain. I should have no feeling, cos feeling it is pain. Cos everything i need, its denied me. And everything i want, its taken away from me. But who i got to blame, nobody but me. And i dont wanna be an no man anymore....Weezer

Blarfffgghh. My topic got partially rejected. $#@!. I need a second opinion. Flying to college early again tomorrow. Getting help. Then wednesday have to fly to APIIT@KL to see my supervisor again to confirm my title.

...i need wings...and sun block.

Happy Birthday Asrar!

I'm listening to Cowboy Bebop - Rush. What a refreshing song after a refreshing cat nap. I dreamt about my final project again. It's the 6th time already. Maybe i should go to the library and get the system to the 'Dream Interpretation' program that was coded by some past seniors. LOL!

Wei Yin showed me this Chinese Astrology program the other day. Wayyyy coolll. You just have to enter in your name, date of birth, and time of birth. With a click of the button, all the stats shows. Not just those kuci miow predictions, really detailed figures, and a energy chart too. Very impressive. Then you know la, me gatal also ma, i keyed in my details, but kind of temak the time. My predictions were not bad i think. The energy chart was high..very high muahahaha. But my enery drops a lot after my 30th year. But then its all predictions. Programmed analysis.

...even chinese Sifu's/Masters are replaced by programs. 10 years from now, programs will replace programmers. The evolution have already started long ago. The thought of it scares me. Some guy quoted (forgot who alredy) 'Either you become real technical, or real business related. You'll lose out if you stay in the middle.'. IT ppl...that's something to think about.

ahermm...me still ragu ragu about my title. I'm so pissed at myself.

Q: How will you know when you are facing the computer too much?
A: When you start getting thick epidermis skin below your palm.

There's this like reddish patch just below of my palm. The skin texture is like harder compared to my palms. I got the feeling is because of the long hours on the mouse. At first got that reddish mark quite sometime ago. But i didn't bother. But now that reddish patch is starting to worry me ... i dont want some think yellow skin below my palm. ..Geek scar.

Final PPF due on 22nd October. Still not to late to change a topic. I need luck. Tons of them.

I would like to wish everyone in my situation to GAMBATTEH! Ka Yau! We can do it! ROARRRRR!

They dont call it Honors degree for nothing. People have to really really work their ass up for it. Now i know why people say party while you can cos degree is all about work and research.

My panic attack lasted until this morning. I couldn't really sleep yesterday cos i was still thinking about my final year project topic. I went to college today even tho i dont have classes. Had to go anyway to hand in the rough proposal. Its all decided now (or maybe not, my cous told me its still possible to change). My title is Chatterbot. Yeah, i'm have to come up with a chating robot program in about 6 months. Its so so not easy. I have to learn languages that i dont know, have to learn and understand concepts so my chatterbot will work. Damn i hate degree. ....correction, i hate the individual final project! ...I don't want to fail my project. I can't fail it. I cant.

Have you ever felt so paniky in your life until you feel like vomiting? I was like that yesterday. I still feel like that now. I can't help but think negative. This is so not me. Where's the confident me 2 weeks ago?

Reality is starting to hit me real bad. I need help. All this is bad for me.

I just realised that some senior did the topic that was my #1 choice. =(

Anyways, i read Fransis's blog just now. He said he knows his results already. I kind of know mine too. I think i definitly got an overall Credit and above. The entry requirement to Monash and QUT is an overall Credit. I got my unconditional offer from both Unis', so i guess my results won't be an overall Pass. Phew. And no la, i'm not going overseas to finish off my degree. I already started class in Apiit rememeber. Unless my parents suddenly *poof* into millionairs then HOHOHO i'll be off to UK. (Chances of it happening : 0.000000000001% so i'll stop dreaming)

How Sern said that Atmosphere is letting in ppl for free today (now) if they are wearing bikini tops. Is it true? So if a guy wears a bikini top need not pay for cover charge too? hehehe

I'll be in deep shit if i dont get a good topic for my final project before monday 2pm. I can't decide on a topic. I can't pick an easy topic cos then i wont be able to score. But i'm afraid i won't be able to code the system in time or at all! if i pick a hard (hard for me =(, but might be easy for others) topic.

I'm so frustrated right now. I have so many great ideas, but all requires real programming skills that is not in me. I need a topic, and i need it fast! I don't what to scare people who are taking the Febuary intake, but i advice you all to start thinking and start research on your topic now!

My life really suck right now. I miss my friends. I miss my holidays. I miss easy database projects!

I'm currently in APIIT's lab typing this entry. I have like super a lot of free time on my hands now. The sad thing is that i will be spending all this free time from now till end of my degree ALONE! This is so depressing. I'm stuck by myself, when everyone is with their own kaki. .... I miss my kakis'! Sobb sobb.

My first class sucked. I dont like the lecturer already. I think he knows his stuff, but he teaches too slow. I almost feel asleep in class. He also gave the class this list of books to read. Because quote "you all are not going to pass your exams by just reading and MEMORISING the slides".

I'm so boredddddddddd. I can't believe i'll be like that for the next 9 months.

Sorry ven! I didn't know you were coming. I totally forgot to inform you that we changed the venue. So sorryyy. Didn't know you waited at Taipan for half an hour too...sorry sorry.

I just came back from a yamchar session with Yik Sau at Darulsalam. He is still the man. HAhahaha. But JB said he bercakap berbanyak tambah banyak. He looks the same. Acts the same. Yeah..the same old Yik Sau i knew. It was fun seeing him again.

Darulsalam looks damn good now. Total revamp from the mamak style place to Darulsalam cafe. The environment is great. Have got to go there more often. Reminds me of chill. Too bad they dont serve alcohol.

Get well soon Mr Teoh! (refering to sean's dad) Gambateh!

Remind me not to take the LRT from Bukit Jalil back to Kelana Jaya ever again! It took me 1 hour and 20 minutes. ARGH!

Briefing today was really boring and for a moment, it was scary. Mr Pardeep explained about out grade points and explained to us the degree grading system. Very different from Higher Dip. Our papers will be actually be marked and moderated 6 times! by 6 different person or management.

The briefing ended at about 12.15. I want to stay back and hang out in the library to do some research with the rest of the CIT (I'm in COM you see) gang attended classes, but didn't. I don't think i'm be able to stay awake in the library till 5. So waited for the 12.30 shuttle bus and went to the LRT station.

The LRT trip was not boring, but still took way too long to get me home. Meet a new friend today. Sherine was on the same shuttle bus as me, we took the LRT together back to KJ together too. Thank god there was someone i could talk to. We kind of kept each other company. Both of us are looking for potential 'carpoolers', else...LRT....NO NO. If i can't be a 'carpoolees', i'm gonna drive. LRT really sucks in the long run.

I saw a very beautiful bright green lizard on the way home. I was taking the short cut back home from the LRT, passed berHutan staircase, the green lizard just ran across of me, up the fence and laid there. Cool huh.

Oh yeah, anyone have any idea what i should do for my final degree project? I have no idea what system i could code.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEF!!!!

Having my orientation tomorrow. Then classes will start on Tuesday. Then there's the final project. Then there's the stress. Haisssss....i'm worried man..very worried. I've got to think about my final project topic too. I have no ideas yet. Have to think of a good one soon cos i really want to start on it. There's a lot of research and learn to be done, and time is not what we all at APIIT have.

I wonder who will be in my class. Need to look for my nerd and geek kaki. All my other kaki wont be in the same class as me, cos they are all majoring in other IT field. Wish me luck.

Hm... looking at myself here is weird, but hey i think its cool. Hehehe.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAUL AND SUET JING!!!!!

Here's some pic's from lunch with paul today.