My sister is a bitch

Yesterday was a roller coaster. I was so fucking pissed at my irresponsible bitch younger sister. Yes, she is a bitch. And I’m a bitch by just bitching about her here, but I don’t give a damn.

My grandma is staying with us again, so whatever I do, I'll have to take into account of not letting my g'ma stay alone at home. I had to make sure there's someone to open the door for the house cleaning lady at 1, and pick my sister at 1.30. Since the cleaning lady will be in the house, I decided to use that to an advantage. I left to pick my sis, telling my g'ma that the cleaning lady will be with her so she won't have to worry.

I reached my sis's school at 1.30 sharp. No one was outside. I waited till 1.50. I left. I was very angry that that moment. When I reached home, I rang my dad. My dad said she finishes at 2pm, not 1.30. Then why in hell did she tell me to come at 1.30? *&^% Ok fine. I left the house again. And when I reached my sister's school, there's was no one still! &^%$##@&$* I waited for another 10 minutes and I rung my dad. I told him that I wasn't going to wait anymore. If my sister calls him, I asked my dad to ring me or the house.

On the way back, I received an SMS from my sister asking me to pick her. WHAT THE FUCK! I U-Turned. Picked my sis. What really got me so FUCKING pissed that she didn't even apologise! She came in smiling. &^%%#*^%*&^*%$@$#$^^(*+

This is not the first time that this happened. There was once I had to wait for 45 minutes! And there was once where she let her pick-up van wait until he got pissed and left! My dad bombarded her but she's just a spoilt bitchy self centred brat. To her, our time is not precious, hers is.

Back when I was in secondary school, my parents weren't there to pick me. I had to always find my own transport and I always tried not to burden my parents. I looked for tuition timings that suited with my parents’ schedule, if I couldn't, I would always arrange my own transport. But for my sis is a whole different story. "I don't care, I have got tuition, fetch me la, fetch my friend also." It's so damn ridicules man. Me and my bro wasn't like that. Only her.

For the most of last year, she didn't have transport back from school. My mom and I had to take turns to pick her up....my mom is a working lady and she had to 'ponteng' work a bit just to pick her. And hey...I have college classes to attend and had to arrange my meetings with course mate and lecturer against HER timetable. My mom had to arrange transport for her because she can’t ‘ponteng’ out of work for her anymore. …My mom had to do it, not my sister.

And now when I can't pick her up anymore, it was my dad's turn to be burdened. She has tuition at the 4.45pm on Fridays. My dad has to rush home early from work to send her and her friend to tuition every single Friday.

I don't know when this is going to end man. It's not only about transportation, even things at home. Why can't she be more responsible? Sometimes I just want to give her a bitch slap on her face to wake her up. If this carries on, I think I would. I don't care what my parents would think. If they are too afraid to educate her, if they are too afraid to make my sister 'hate' them, I'll do it. I don't care if my sister will hate me, because this cannot continue.

She should be ashamed of herself. And if any of you reading this is like my sister, you should be ashamed of yourself too. Yes, insult intended.

AHHHHHHH … I feel half better. The other half of my day was much better. I want to Sungai Wang, then to Low Yat and then Times Square. I was planning to eat dinner at home but me and Zhong decided to stay in Times Square because of the arcade. I really sucked at Para Para already. =( Anyway after the arcade session, Zhong dragged me to the indoor theme park. Best theme park in Malaysia man. If you have seen and is impressed with the indoor roller coaster, ….well that’s not the best ride. The DNA Mixer is a must sit ride! Crazy ride man!

Didn’t get to try out every ride but we did try out all those that we wanted. At the end of the last ride, I almost puked! Well… almost, but couldn’t. I went to the wash room to wash my face and…OMG, I was as pale as a ghost!

Leaving work on time

Yeah, I have busy. With what? I don't know. I miss my blog.

I have been leaving work on time this week because I was sick of work, and there's anime to watch at home. When I left work on Tuesday, I met one of my colleague who always stay back late to finish her work, she was going home early too.

Me: Eh, going home early too? Not staying back today meh?
A: What early? Don't be like them please. We are going home on time. Now it's already 5.15, its not early. 4.15 is early but now 5.15.

I was dumb folded for a minute. She was right. We were not leaving early. We have never left early. The habit of staying back late changed most of our mindset. I have been only working for about 2 months plus and I had that workaholic mindset already. It's bad for me. I told myself, 'I'll try to leave work on time starting today'. And I did. I'm home on time this whole week. =)

Much is going on at the office. We have a new colleague in our team, and a guy from another department is sharing the office room with my project manager and my other colleague. More will be coming in on Monday or Tuesday. Sad thing is... my project manager is closing off our project on Monday. That means our team will be transition and parked under the CCSC-E (Customer Computer Support Center-East...I think) She will no longer be sitting with us in the same room. =( Just as me and my colleague started to get to know her, she had to leave. It's so sad. I'm going to miss her.

Oh.. and one of my pregnant colleague gave birth to a baby girl! A me and few colleagues went to visit her during lunch hour the next day. She's so cute! She looks like her mother. Hehehe. Don't know her name yet though, her mommy didn't want to tell us, we kind of have to wait until the baby is registered.

Mini gathering

There's no place better for buffet steamboat than Yuen's steamboat in Sunway. I think since college days, I have never failed to attend any gathering/birthdays in Yuen’s. Their 'gone in 17 seconds' honey chicken wings are still as delicious as they used to be.


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Burb! Everyone was full after dinner, so... there's nothing better to do than to 'open table' muahahaha. The gang came over to my place and we did our thing.


The guys. Front to back : Dave, Ah Ching Kor, Soloh, and Nick hehehe


The girls. I realised that Jin Bee is not in the pic! Aie... front to back: Hiew Yuen, Ai Li, Cheyrl, Me, Jin and Mun

Want to say much more but the Malaysia Law do not permit me to do so. hehehe if you get what I mean. (...of cos you get what I mean ;P)

Anyway, here's the map to Hor Poh restaurant. Everyone should go try, especially if you like eating vegetables a lot! Papi, hope you can find your way there :)


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Lui char, hor poh style

Came back from lunch with my family and cousins. Me and one of my cousins boyfriend actually works in the same company. Out of the office I call him ‘kor kor’, when in the office I address by his name. It’s weird la. Should I just address him by his name next time we are out of the office?

I have been eating like it’s end of the world for the whole of the CNY. I need to exercise man! Here’s what we ate for lunch.


Hor Poh Restaurant in Sri Sinar Jaya, Kepong. Hor Poh is actually something Hakka.


The main dish is called Lui Char, also known as Ham Char (Salty tea). The dish consist of rice, different types of vegetables and a tea. This is the types of vegetable that are the usual in a Lui Char dish.


This is the tea, or ‘char’. It’s actually more like a soup, but Hor Poh calls it tea. It’s green because it mostly consists of basil leaves blended with other ingredient to make the soup.

To eat, all the vegetables are actually mixed in to a bowl of rice. Then the tea is poured into the bowl. The whole bowl will be like ‘rojak’ now, you’ll have to mix it and there you have it. Lui char. Rating: 9.5/10


We ordered clay pot assam prawns. Tasted delicious. Rating : 8.5/10


Pork legs, or actually pork hands. It’s deep fried ‘chi sau’. Ratings: 8/10


Hor Poh tofu stuffed with fish/meat. Slurp slurp…if OUG chow tofu had a texture like that…that would be great! Ratings 8/10


Hor poh vegetable kuih. Ratings: 7/10

Going for a buffet steamboat dinner in Sunway later. Food again…OMG! But I can’t wait! Hiew Yuen, Nick, Ai Li and Jin Bee will the there too! I haven seen them for 1 and a half years already!

Daddy's birthday dinner

Hehe, blur me. My colleague’s wedding luncheon is 19th next month, not yesterday. Anyway, we (dad, mom, sis and me) had dinner at a restaurant very near my home yesterday for my dad's birthday dinner. Dinner place was called Big Lobster, if you head towards Sunway from Kepong using the LDP, the restaurant is clearly visible on the left of the hiway after the Kelana Jaya LRT station.


The chillie paddies, chopped garlic, fried chicken floss with spring onions. The fried chicken floss with spring onions was very nice. Rating: 9.5/10


Boston lobster in soup. Very delicious. The soup was very sweet, not with sugar but with taste of lobster. There's a bit of rice wine in it and ginger. Rating: 8.5/10


Steamed catfish. Hm, the fish was fish la. No *slurp slurp* over it. I didn't like it cos I don't like catfish anyway. Rating for a catfish hater: 7/10


King scallop. The size of the shell is slightly bigger than a CD. The diameter of the scallop is about 2 inches. I didn't find the dish special. It's just fresh scallop baked with mushroom cheese. Pay the $ for the 'king' word only la. Smaller fresh scallop taste the same. I ate the scallop's egg too, a little rubbery and soft. Rating: 7/10


Birthday noodles, also known as 'Cheong Sau' noodles. Cheong Sau means long and skinny. LOL! (Well, I think not skinny, there should be another meaning to it but don't mind me, i'm banana ma ;P) Well, the noodle actually just means if one eats it during his/her birthday, he/she will life a long and healthy life. Rating 8/10

All in all, nice. All four of us were full, very full. The price was quite ok too. RM250 with a few bugs of change. My mom hinted that we should try the sashimi style lobster on her birthday. *looks at me purse* *cries*

water dumblings

Private but not private entry. Read on if you want to be blurred.

Wahahahaha VERY HAPPY TODAY! Thank you Uncle! Thank you Auntie! Your dumblings were superb! Thank you Zhong!

*runs around like too-too train and jumps around like a monkey* *music playing in the background ....*dub *dub *dub *dub |\|\|\/|/|/()|\|\|\|\/|/|* WHAHAHAHAHAHA oh mannnn it's too early in the day to be this hyper! Thank god I didn't |\|\ in Esprit HAHAHA! Loved the pants loved the pants! Thank you!!!

...and you know what my mom said ah? Eh later his father thinks you are his *ahem* then how? HAHAHAHAHAHA! LOLROTF! I think our parents should meet one day, then I can scare my mom HAHAHAHAHA!

*jumps jumps jumps*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

My mom went to work and my sis is at school activities. No one was free to make 'hong kai dan' (red eggs) for my dad so I did. Following Chinese custom, red eggs are made for the birthday person and everyone who are celebrating it with him. It's something for good luck, good fortune and good health. The more red eggs eaten, the more the luck! Here's how you make them =)


Step 1: Fill a pot with water, and put your eggs in them. Remember to take your eggs out from the fridge first for about 10 to 20 minutes before you boil them. If the eggs are too cold, it may crack when you boil them.


Step 2: Put the eggs to boil for about 2 minutes. Turn the fire off and let the eggs stay in the boiling water for another 10 minutes before you drain the water out.


Step 3: Take a small bowl big enough to fit an egg. Add your red colouring. In my case, I have used power colouring, there are liquid colouring available in the market.


Step 4: Add warm/hot water and stir. You may want to add a little water first to test the colour. Different colourings are different, if too diluted the red will look like orange. Add more water/colouring accordingly.


Step 5: Roll the egg in the pool of blood...er i mean red colouring. Make sure the egg is still hot/warm, else the colour won't stick.


Viola! Let the colouring dry and it's all done and ready to eat.

Note: How do you know if your eggs aren’t fresh? If the eggs floats (see the first picture, the egg on the top) means that egg is not fresh. The air pocket in the egg makes it float.

How Will I Know If I Met The Person I Should Marry

OMG! Naruto is licensed! means no more fansub! WHAT! WHERE CAN! Have to go look for ...*ahem* some other source.

Jaya sent me this. Single folks should read this. I totally agree with everything that this person says, except not many of us will meet that right person where the heart and head agrees.

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How Will I Know If I Met The Person I Should Marry

The choice of a marriage partner should not be based on "I get a warm, wonderful feeling whenever we're together and I want to have that warm wonderful feeling forever, so let's go get married". Feelings, as we have discussed, have no logic on their own. They need to be acknowledged, of course, but they need considerable assistance from your brain.

Marriage means choosing the person you will spend the rest of you life with. This, as you may have guessed, is a very long time to spend with one person.

This person will live with you, eat meals with you, sleep with you, and go on vacation with you. More important yet, this person will share your children.

You need to choose wisely. The decision should not be made based on feelings alone. You need to ask yourself some tough questions.! The decisions have to be made on solid considerations.

Will this person be a good partner? Is she mature enough to put her own selfish desires aside to look out for what is best for the family?

Is he prepared to be a good provider? What is his track record? Is he responsible enough to get a good job and keep it?

Will this person be a good parent? Can you stand the thought of your children turning out exactly like this person? They will, you know.

Children spend a lot of time with their parents and consequently pick up many or most of their parents' character traits. You had better like your spouse's traits a lot because you will be seeing them again in your children.

If something were to happen to you, would you completely trust this person, alone, with the task of raising and forming your children? This is not a pleasant thought, but it is an important consideration. Not everyone dies at a ripe old age with great
grandchildren gathered around the bed. Sometimes a parent dies and leaves young children in the care of the other parent.

If you feel that you would need to be around to correct or lessen this person's influence on your children, then you are considering the wrong person.

Does this person share your faith in God? God does not give us children so that we can mold them into the coolest, most popular people in school. Our job is to get them to heaven. To do that, we need to raise them believing in God and in His Church. It is tough to do that if only one parent believes.

Saying "this is right and this is wrong, and I want you to ignore Mommy until you are thirty-five" does not work.

Small children ask about eight skillion questions in a single day.

The answers to those questions go a long way toward forming the kind of adults they will become. Who will be answering those questions for your children?

Does this person you are marrying have sexual self-control?

Single people sometimes have this idea that marriage is just some kind of lifelong sex festival and that as long as they have each other, they will never be tempted by other people.

Wrong.

There are many times in every marriage when one partner or the other is sexually unavailable? There are also times when spouses, just get on each others nerves.

At times like this, other people can seem very appealing. That can be dangerous, because there are plenty of very attractive people out there who are willing to make them available to married men and women. Do you want someone who has never said "no" to sex? If he is not good at saying "no" at eighteen, it won't be different at forty. Do you want to worry about whether or not your spouse is being faithful?

What kind of marriage can you have with someone you couldn't trust on a business trip?

These are very important questions, and if you are not comfortable with all of the answers, you should definitely not marry this person. None if this is to say that feelings play no role at all in a marriage decision. You don't have to, "Well, I suppose that you would make a good spouse and parent, so even though I don't particularly like you I guess I'll marry you'. You need to be happy and excited about the prospect of spending your life with someone. Your brain however must acknowledge that this person as a good catch.

Don't listen to your heart alone or your head alone. Wait until your heart and head agree.

"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship.

It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."

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To all APIITians, Good luck for your exams!

Someone stole the RAM

Just when I thought I could catch up on my work, ...something came up. I got a call from Melissa (our team's 'sponge', she learns everything that the team needs to know and spread it to the team like wild fire) asking me about a duplicate file. It seems that another colleague of mine was review the same folder!

Melissa checked on our files and found that some of the data I was supposed to review wasn't in my file. That means… I'm in deep shit. I have been skipping a lot of log entries that I was suppose to review. *yikes* Thank god my team leader said to continue from where I left off, so I do not have to back track. As for me and my colleague’s duplicate review, I'm carrying on with the job because it was my responsibility in the first place.

I'm already bogged down by so much work, so much data to review. And now, more stuff to review. I have no idea how I'm going to finish it. Seriously, .... even if I didn't have any back logs, I still will not be able to finish it. The work load is just too heavy for one person! Maybe I'm slow, but I don't know man. It's crazy! I better buck up, if not.... arghghghghg my supervisor is going to kill me!

My team lead came to my cubicle after work and we had a little chat. I was worried that he was going to give me my first 'You better buck up dude' lecture, but it was not. *phewwwww* I'm glad I have an understanding team leader. Not only did he give me words of encouragement, he shared with me his experience when he was like me. He's a smart guy who can read people's mind. He gave me a bit of an advice... I really want to share it with you all, but I don't want to get sued. Any company will be lucky to have a staff like him.

Anyway, I finished off a bit of work and as I leave I met my team leader again. I wanted to buy a birthday card for my dad and he wanted to buy something for his son, so we headed to KLCC and took the LRT home together. It's nice to get to know more about my team leader.


On yeah, … the old white elephant PC that was under my desk was still there when I came to work this morning. The guy in charge of it came to collect all of our white elephant today. Guess what…. Both RAMs from the PCs in my room were missing. Someone must have stolen it. No one was in during the CNY holidays and the room had no lock. 2 x 256mb of SDRam. Who stole it?

frog porridge

Nuts ...I am...I mean I love nuts!


The one on top looks obscene...X-rated walnut


Yum yummm

Aren't they cute!? Hehehe taste delicious too! My project manager said a relative of her bought a bag full of walnuts some where in Jalan Silang, Kuala Lumpur. I think it's somewhere near Petaling Street if I remembered correctly. It's a shop selling wholesale food stuff, nuts, sweets and stuff like that. Got to buy in bulk though.

One thing good about working in KL is that I get to learn KL's road. I'm not usually the person behind the wheel so I really get to "focus" on the road. Hehehe. Another good thing about working in KL is that I get to try out dirty road side stalls that have super super delicious food! My theory, the dirtier the food, the better it taste. It's a little true you know. Soloh pick me up from office today and we headed for dinner at Jalan Alor. I always though that Jalan Alor was some place where men go for 'bedminton', hehehe, it's just until a few months back did I realised that the whole road was only food! The only 'bedminton' that one is going to get is the one he/she going to need to burn all that food off.

Didn't manage to eat the tofu salad, balitong and tom yam that Jun Kun recommended, me and Soloh ate frog porridge! I've eaten 'kong pou' (stir fried frog with dry chillies, ginger, onions, onion leak and soya sauce) frog... actually it's toad... before but have never tried porridge. Tasted like a mixture of fish and chicken in the porridge. Soloh ordered sotong (squid) also. The sotong was quite nice actually. It's fried with (I think) rojak sauce, sambal, pepper, onions, four ankle beans and of course sotongs.

My nose was running (away…hehehe) when I was eating, ter’put too much of pepper in my porridge and the sotong was quite spicy. Then again, I’m a person that can’t really take spicy stuff. I don’t like blowing my nose every time I want to eat. Unless I’m at home…alone…then…HAHAHAHA you know la, can ganas and be as disgusting as I want.

My tummy feels warm now… hope I don’t feel sick tomorrow.

is love in the air?

*sniff sniff* Yep it is. Love is everywhere today, but not in me.

Really jaded right now. Worked my latest today. The reward? Walnuts. Cute little walnuts that my project manager gave me. Will post them up tomorrow. Right now... I just need sleep!

*muaks* people, and Happy Valentine's Day. Singles too can celebrate this day, it's our choice after all.

Back to work

Yeps, will be going back to work tomorrow. I think my work load is going to be scary. I've got Tuesday's, Wednesday's, Thursday's, Friday's, Saturday's, Sunday's and tomorrow's work to do. That's a week of work. I'm feeling down just think of the work. Will be working many over time hours this month again. *haissss*

Anyway, have been winning and losing money in gambling sessions. I have to beware of Aaron. I lost money to him again this year. *grumble grumble* There was a year where he teamed up with Wei Seng and become the 'chongker' (banker) and won a lot of money from us. This year Aaron teamed with How Sern and history repeats itself. Sad. Lucky I won a bit of money before Aaron came in.

Chinese New Year still a little dull. I'm planning to catch up with some dudes before they fly back to their study place. Difficult to meet up with them when I'm working. Have to find time to 'bai lean' (Chinese New Year visiting) also. And then my Dad's birthday! I don't know what to get him. =( I think I'll save some brain juice and just spend him dinner.

...Valentine's Day tomorrow too. .... how come there's no day where single people can celebrate being single?

Bragging parents

When I was young (and blur), Chinese New Year is when I get to see all my cousins. We play catching together. We walk out to the stalls and buy junk food and fire works. We run around all over the house. We rent videos and watch them the whole day long. But now, all my cousins have grown up. Some married, some with kids, and the rest, we are all too old to be playing catching around the house.

I miss those days of Chinese new year that only our parents have to take role as actors. Now when we (me, my bro and my sis) have grown up, we have to act along. As I grow older, I realised that Chinese New Year is beginning to be less fun year after year. This is because the more I grow up, the more I have to become one of them 'actors'.

Everyone is putting up a face. The richer/more intelligent among the family gets more attention. The poorer/less intelligent gets ignored. This might not be true in all families, but in mine, it does. I believe in many families, family rivalry happens. Parents want their kids to be compared. Whose kid is the smartest ....bla bla bla stuff like that. When I was younger I ignored conversations like those. But secretly we (me and my cousins) all know that among us, we have to compete to save our parents face and ego. I know it's a cruel/unethical/immoral thing to say, but it's true. The more intelligent/richer/successful your kids are, the more bragging rights you'll earn.

I know parents want to be proud of their kids. But what they don’t know is that it annoys people. Sometimes I just want to say "Yes we all know, now hush."

We are all good actors

Yo... I'm back.

CNy for me this year is HOT and HUMID! *sweats a cup of tea* Overall was so so. Beginning to really dislike CNY. The more I open my eyes, the more I dislike the atmosphere of CNY. I can't really blog much now, just got back, got to unpack and stuff. All I have to say is "We are family, can we all just stop te acting?"

Oh yeah...money status.... -RM20. I just don't have luck when it comes to gambling. Hopefully I can get some people to 'donate' me some money for the next 2 days muahahaha. Looking forward to CNY open house sessions... if you get what I mean *wink*

CNY

Happy CNY all!

I'll be heading back to Pangkor later, so I guess I won't be seen here till I come back! ...and if my darling PC is still alive. My system is starting to overheat again. It should be something affecting it. I cleaned out my heat sink and fan but yet still like that. Not die on me man... I've got no money to replace any part of you.

Anyway, I have a goal for CNY. I need to gain a few kgs.

...yeesh. got to end it here. My bro is bugging me for the PC.

I wish you all a big big money in the small small ang pow! Gong Xi Fa Chai.

Smaller bed

I have a big bed with noone to share it with. I need a smaller bed.

nothing left here...move along :P

We are our friends

I've been going to Jackson's CNY open house party for 3 years in a row now... and every year I learn something (directly or indirectly). This year is no exception

Conversations I had today just made me regret, I was blur back when I was in secondary school. But I don't live to regret. I've realised and moved on. There's a saying "We are who we mix with" or "You can tell a person by looking at who he's/her friends are". It's true in a few cases, because friends and people/environment around us influence us. We may realise that the influencing is happening, but some people like me are blur. And it's too late when I realised.

I'm seeing a trend in conversations carried out during Jackson's open house every year. Friends who attend are the "smart, confident, intelligent and intellectual" group of from my secondary school. From college days, they/we would have conversations about our colleges/universities/studies and listening to these conversations sometimes makes me feel so small. It's like being in with a group of CEO's and me being the only executive. I admire them a lot. I'm always engrossed by all their conversations, the words that comes out from their mouths are with sense and maturity. There’s no bull talk in these conversations. You know… it’s like those ‘boring conversations’ that I love listening to.

Today, there were no more college/university chats. The question of the night was "So, where are you working now?" Everyone seems to be really well off with their career. They/We shared their plans and the table (all of us were seated in a round table...kind of like in the King Arthur story expect we were not knight in shinning armour ;P) responded with really mature and analytical feedbacks. Listening to them and myself speak, made me realise where I stood. The competition is so great. I took a look round the table and realised that these people here, will be IT in the future.

I can't help but wonder, will I be sitting with these people and be IT myself in the future… if only I chose my friends more wisely when I was young. Because it does matter. I'm not saying that I have 'bad' friends. Friends are friends and if there was anything such as bad friends, I'd learn from them. I just regret I didn't pick these people of the round table people to learn from.

Jackson's party always leave me wondering a lot. Friends play a big part in our lives, but I've only one reminder for myself, Learn the good from the bad and the bad from the good. It's always up to us to filter and absorb. And what if absorb the wrong (..substance…hahahaha just joking)? It’s all up to our self control and determination.

How much $ to give?

As I type, I'm sipping down Norfolk Punch. It's a fruity juice thingy that taste a lot like wine minus the alcohol. Good stuff. Surrounding me is a bunch of titbits, some pineapple tarts, groundnuts cookies, chicken floss, and 'long yoke' (BBQ'ed flatten meat). I wished I had food like this all year round. *slurp*

Soloh picked me up from work again today to head down to Breakers to meet up with the gang. We were very early so we headed to a mamak and had drinks/dinner. I got to know him a lot today, one of those persons that I can have 'what is life' conversation with, without giving lame comments. Sean met up with us and then we headed to Breakers to meet with Jin and Dave.

Didn't play much of anything today. I was kind of tired from office work, only played a round of pool with Kwang. Heh... I have got to practise; I must win next time muahahaha. Anyway, I was actually looking forward to catch up with Gerby, Ngai Yung, Daren and Ven. But I really was falling asleep when they reached.

*yawnnn* I want to sleep, but I can't. I'm so tired but my brain won't rest. Thinking a lot about work, money, life and love. Life cannot be without love, but life cannot be without money. I'm beginning to dislike money. It brings a lot of problems. Sometimes I feel that one day money will take over love. The world is just material. People in love deny it, call me materialistic if you must, but money does play a big part in love. I realised that many arguments in families/relationships reflects back on money. When you have to little of it, people tend to focus on earning money and neglect their other responsibilities in the family. One might even get dumped because he/she is not “rich” enough. When you have too much of money, …wait let me rephrase, when you have more money to spend, 3rd parties (may it be insincere friends, young wives, the ego or etc) will get in the way of a happy family. But I guess that is life, right? Love is the Yin, and money is the Yang. We all should just develop a way to get a balance of both of it… or suppress ourselves with it comes to greed/money.

...work was OK today. I got a new desktop today. From giant white elephant to slim sexy Dell lady. Or in more geeky terms; CRT -> LDC. A P4 with 512 of RAM, but I don't feel the increase of speed, it's all comes down to the network. I wished I dealt with all local servers. Currently, I have to get most of my files from servers in Texas. I want KL servers…sobb sobb. One sad thing about the new PC is that it's still running on NT! ARGH! We were supposed have Win XP but some internal applications will not run on it. Dang. I want to use the Windows+D short cut key but I can't on NT! ^%#&#%(*&%&$%#@ Anyway, I got an invitation to my first wedding luncheon yesterday. Iveen came into the room and passed me a red envelope. I assumed it was a CNY card and thanked her. But I smelt perfume on it and wondered "Har? Got smell? A bit weird" So I opened and had a look at the card. It's not a CNY card but a wedding invitation. I should go and do some PR, but her weeding luncheon happens to be on my Dad's birthday too. Tak tau apa macam lah… got to give wedding ang pow also… again “How much to give?”

Oh yeah... my bro is coming back tomorrow! ...I have not reformat his PC for him...shit

....money is a factor

My mom popped the question. "So, what are you going to give your grand parents for CNY?"

Earning my own money is not fun. I am so much poorer compared to when I was studying. Money only comes in for a few seconds and the next it's all gone. Am I a big spender? I don't know. I have to really cut down on entertainment. Breakers this Friday.... =( ... I don't know how I'm going to survive. Mom, can't you let me enjoy my pay for the first few months? 50% of my pay is really too much. Too damn much.

I have been doing a lot of thinking on how to manage my money. But no matter what, there seem to be nothing I can do except be a 'kiam siap kui' (stingy ghost). I have to be less 'wai sek' also. No more expensive food. No more spending money on junk food. No more spending on things that are not necessary. No more entertainment.

As for the CNY, being a person who earns her own money, I am entitled the 'privilege' to give out angpows now, not to everyone of course. One each for my mom, dad, my grandma in Pangkor and my grandparents in Ipoh. My grandpa in Pangkor passed away way before I was born. ARGHGHGHGHHG.

For mom, dad and my Ipoh grandparents... will surely be cash angpow. For my 'ah ma' (grandma) in Pangkor, I don't think cash is a good idea. She keeps them and then forgets where it goes. But I don't know what to buy for her either. The typical stuff that people get for her are bird nest, goal, Chinese herbs... hais. Any ideas any one? And for the cash angpow... have to give how much? I need comments. I'm new at this. I need help. My mom hinted, she say don't give too little. ...but what is little? I earn like how much...then mom takes 50% ...any figure is big for me! Damn stress laaaa ....I don't know how much to give my mom and dad also....AHHHHHHHHH

I need a part time job that pays really well. I think I should go back to my free lancing mode.

City Day

I couldn't sleep yesterday. I was thinking of how it would end. What desicion was made. I don't know what I would say. Can you be a fair person, and also a good friend? A good friend tells you the truth no matter how much it hurts right?

Today's City Day. I got the day off. But I'll be heading back to the office later. I really worried that I can't meet my deadline. I have another talk I have to attend on Thursday. So another day of postponing my work. I don't pity myself for working today though. I think it will be good for me. I don't want to stay at home. Just too many things on my mind. Being a workoholic will be good for the time being.