I feel very lost without my phone contacts

My whole family would always gather back in my uncle's house in Pangkor with my grandma for the Chinese New Year (CNY) reunion dinner. But this year is different. We had our dinner at home. Joining us for dinner was my aunt’s family from Singapore and Uncle K, who is close family friend. Having to prepare dinner for 12 is challenging but... I really enjoyed the dinner.

I left at 11am the next morning to visit my grandma... but guess what? We all managed to reach Pangkor at 4.30pm! That's 5 and a half hours! The traffic jam on the PLUS high way was really bad although it was 'chor yat'. (First day of CNY) My whole family thought that the road would be free because everyone would have been back to their hometown already, but I guess we were wrong. There were accidents along the way that made the jam worst too. Getting to Ipoh from Pangkor was another pain in the butt. Really! The journey took extra long because of a police road block. Thank god the journey back home was short and sweet.

Anyway, I got my new SIM card and almost 'pengsan' (fainted) when my SMS inbox was flooded with messages from numbers! I don't know who is who! I'm not the kind of person who would memorize phone numbers. That is what technology is for. So dear all, I need a favor from you, SMS me at my number (Yep still the same one) and let me know who you are. Yah… even you people whom are half brothers and sisters to me… SMS me also la yah because I can’t remember your numbers la. I have to start collecting my contacts all over again =( I just hope maxis have a big enough space to store all my SMSes because I don't know when I'm going to get a new phone. I have been swapping the SIM card on my sis's phone to make calls but my sis is not so understanding. ...I have got a SIM card but no phone... sobb sobb.

I feel very lost without my phone contacts.

What is the cheapest phone in the market? I'm getting the most 'chap lang','cheh kai', 'retro' phone there is. ....I'm not going to buy any expensive portable gadgets for myself anymore. ....yeeshhh ...or at least until my luck changes. That means no MacBook Pro. I shall just stick to a desktop.

I need to win all your money

Ok... so I don't think it's nice for me to start the Chinese New Year with a post title "FUCKKKK". And yep, I feel much better thank you. The rage, frustration and heart ache faded off when I woke up yesterday. I re-read my post and ... hmmm I was really really pissed off and scary. So kesimpulannya (the conclusion), don't try to bring out my dark side because I can be a real monster.

Anyway I have been really busy... as usual? I have been baking like a mad person. Read this and you will know what I mean.

Work have been confusing lately. I love what I am doing now, but I know I won't be going any where far. News, incidents and rumors at work are getting worst and worst too. And if that's not bad enough... I am currently put in a difficult position, but, this position is powerful if I use it wisely. All I can do now is grow extra eyes on my ears and a few more eyes around my back and sit on the fence. I have got a lot of thinking to do.

The rest of my life is fine.. except I'm still piling on fat! not weight! My brother says I got to stop all my baking because ....hahaha well I know. I bake, I eat. Even if I don't eat, I do lick my fingers and utensils clean. Further more, I like trying out new recipes so testing out my end product is a must to improve. Never mind lo hor... I'll start cutting down on all my fatty stuff after Chinese New Year... HAHAHAHA can't resist all the food weiiii.

Happy Chinese New Year and Kong Hei Fatt Choy to everyone! May you win 18 rounds straight on Majong and get 18 Black Jacks in a row if you are playing Black Jack! (Got open house call me la yah.. I need to win all your money to buy myself a new handphone hehe)

FUCKKKKKK

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK MY PHONE GOT STOLEN AGAIN!!!!!!

Edit: Okay... let me get this straight. I did not loose my phone this time. Someone stole it from me in the LRT. Don't tell me to get over it because I CAN'T FUCKING PRETEND THAT NOTHING HAPPEN. It's like saying "get over it and move on" to someone who just got dump by a loved one.

I'm so ^%$#%&*^%( right now I take everything as "CANT YOU SEE I"M PISSES SO FUCK THE HELL OFF". Don't come saying stuff like "The old have to go, only will the new come" because to me I FELT LIKE I JUST BOUGHT MY PHONE. I can't believe it's gone in less than 9 months!

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK ... I haven't felt this way since GOD KNOWS WHEN!

And if you are reading this. YES IT GOT STOLEN. AND YES I DONT HAVE A PHONE RIGHT NOW. So please don't annoy me, pretending you know nothing, and then asking me about my phone to strike a conversation COS YOU JUST WILL FUCKING ANNOY ME. I"M NOT STUPID. I KNOW WHO MY READERS ARE.

Seeing Reading me like this... I'm NOT CALM and will not be calm until I choose to be. DON'T TELL ME HOW I SHOULD FEEL BECAUSE I CHOOSE HOW I SHOULD FEEL. And right now I rather just PISS EVERYONE OFF WITH THIS POST because I just feel like it.

And heads up for everyone, I am a BIG FAT BAD BITCH when I'm in a FOUL MOOD LIKE THIS. If I were you, I would just leave me alone until I start talking. The last thing I need is reading and listening to sympathy talk... it makes me sick. SHIT happens and SHIT HAPPENED TO ME. That's all there is to it. If you choose not to listen to my advice... well I'm not sorry if my insults\sarcasm hurt your feelings because I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE.

If you got a problem with my attitude... I suggest you just fucking don't read this blog. Now piss off and leave me alone.

So how?

A's last day will be Feb-9. J got fired last Thursday. Afraid of a certain medium fry. More responsibilites. More annoying people. The new team member who is an apple polisher is one of them. Upline review tomorrow.

So how?

Doing your own laundry : Part 2

Okie... here's part 2

When your load is done, hang to dry as soon as possible. The longer you leave it in the washing machine, the more wrinkles your clothes will get. Use suitable hangers for your clothes. Some plastic hanger have hooks at the side or top to hook your skirt and such up, so use them... but you should avoid using this kind of hangers for T-shirts. Sometime you will get hangers marks with these hangers when your shirt dries. It's always a good idea to purchase different types of hangers.. and in different size too. I have some mini hangers at home actually to sometimes hang more mini stuff. When my kiddy cousins sleep over, I usually use them for their clothes because the normal ones are just to huge for their cute little shirts.

Also remember to over turn your clothes so that the color will not fade as fast compared to if you don't. Pull straight the wrinkles on your clothes before hanging them too so you will get 'smoother' clothes when they are dried.

Pick suitable places to dry your clothes too. Avoid dusty\smoky places. Sunny places are nice to get your clothes to dry fast, but remember that not all clothes can be dried under the sun. Leave stretchable material in shades, the direct sun light can kill the material.

For those using the drier.. well happy ironing. Just remember that some clothes will shrink in the drier.

And when your clothes are dried, don't be a lazy bum. Fold them and keep them. Leaving them in a mountain of clothes will make them wrinkle. .....I got lazy once with curtains... I didn't hook them up immediately so I ended up ironing all the curtains! Lesson learn lo...

Okay, Doing your own laundry lesson completed by aunty teckiee. ...Maybe I should write another aunty lesson on "Washing your toilet" HAHAHAHA

Doing your own laundry : Part 1

A few of my not so 'aunty' and 'uncle' friends who are leaving home to study abroad have ask me a few 'aunty' and 'uncle' questions. Hais.. but I don't call them aunty or uncle. This is survival ... or just slavery in my case LOL! What am I talking about? Doing your own laundry.

Don't over load or soak clothes in the washing machine. There are springs and the washing machine mechanism that might spoil if you do that too often.

Separate your clothes. Dark colored and light colored clothed in different loads. Watch out for those new clothes that might discolor and beach your whole load of washed clothes with that particular color. Remember not to mix dark colored clothes with towels unless you want your clothes to have unwanted 'fur' that is %$#^ to remove. And guys, it's always a good idea so separate your loads, please don't wash your clothed with your rags! EEK!

Don't over use washing detergent\power\softener. Remember, less is more, but more is less. Too much chemical can kill your clothes faster. Do also use the entry slots provided by your washing machines. Sometimes you would end up getting some excess washing power sticking to your clothes. (I still wonder why that happens, the washing powder won't dissolve)

Empty out pockets. Coins and stuff might end up in and under the machine and will spoil the washing machine. Tissue paper will also mess up your load, especially when you are washing a load with dark colored clothes! Use a laundry net if necessary to avoid any damage to your clothes. I usually put my stretchable clothes in nets so that my clothes won't stretch with the wash. And for lazy bums who don't handwash their bras, use nets so you won't end up disfiguring and ripping the bra into two.

If you mess up your wash.. well do it again lo. Remember to empty out the dirt filter every 10 to 15 wash... and especially after a tissue paper action went on during the wash.

Tip: You can also wash your soft toys and shoes! in the washing machine. Hey... it's called the washing machine not the clothes washing machine. Just set the settings to wash only. You should not 'spin' your soft toys as it will reshape and spoil your toys... and as for the shoes... poor washing machine. Let your shoes drip dry la.

to be continued...

how much are you expecting to get paid?

I think it was yesterday's The Star newspaper. I read a short article on a book which the author addresses tips on answering tough interview questions. Let's see if I remember the 2 tips correctly, it goes something like this;

Q: So how much are you expecting to get paid?
A: Hm... a little less that Bill Gates will do.

Well, of course, you will have to phrase it and use an appropriate tone while answering the question. Wait for your interviewer to laugh… well I hope they do if not you’ll have to say something to cover up.

Q: Are you single\attached?
A: Well if I get this job I would be married to it!... may I know what this question have relation to this job I'm applying for?

Professionally, interviewers should not ask this kind of personal questions. In the matter of fact, all questions you think that are not related to the job or company should not be asked at all! If you don't feel comfortable answering, don't.

If you are wondering why the question is asked at all.. well some bosses prefer to hire single employees so that they would be more committed to their work. Or less issues when they have to travel or get transferred. No family, husband\wife or girlfriends\boyfriends means fewer issues … something like that.

I personally think the author's suggestion for the two questions above are quite good. But... here's what I think.

I have not gone for much job interviews but what is #1 that one should have is confidence. Walk straight, sit straight, firm handshake (only if your interview reach his\her hands out first), speak clearly and make eye contact. Being able to look straight in the eye of your interviewer is one thing any interviewee should do during any interview.

Honesty is the best policy. What you say and how you project yourself is what you would have to do the whole time you are hire in the company if you get the job. Don't act like someone you are not. Being superficial\fake is stressful on yourself in the long run.

How should I answer my questions? Well, prepare yourself before the interview. List all the standard\predictable questions and go through your points a day before your interview. Be like The Sims and practice it in front of the mirror if you have to. And for the being funny part... I think it really depends on the setting of the interview and the type of job you are applying for. I seriously don't think you should be answering as the author suggested when you are apply for serious and 'big' positions. However, I would try out those answers if I was applying for a job in the entertainment and sales line.

Intel Macs

It's out. ....I Want!!!

Weird Habits

HOHOHO Bernat, you tagged the correct person because you can't get a weirder person than me ;P What's going on? Well, go here and you'll understand.

Weird Habits meme as of 14 Jan 2006
My top 5:
1 - I get sick by listening to "Dau Kei Mui's" conversations.
2 - I like sleeping in the hot hot hot afternoon in my room with the door closed with no air circulation (no fan and no air conditioning).
3 - The typical female person thinks of what to wear to work on the next working day, I don't. Instead, I think about my lunch.
4 - (I just realized that) I like watching movies alone.
5 - I can't start a conversation when I want to. I don't know what to say.

Now for my victims? HAHAHAHA don't be scared, I'm not going to bite. Asrar, my cous SJ, Sonia, Alice and Fishtail.

I'm allergic to "tau kei mui's"

BEH TAHAN! Sorry people, but I have some complaining to do. Don't read on if you don't have an open mind. Don't read on if you are going to judge me on this...but read on because HELLLLLL you are going to end up judging me anyway.

Last week in the LRT, (I think) they are students from TAR college. Their classes starts again... schedules are out... even the examination schedule are out. They were talking about their lectures, their lab sessions, their 'soon to be' group meetings. Their boyfriends. Quote ("bebe, my darling, ling ling, my woozie bear"); Their gang of friends. Quote ("Ning ning, sammy gurl, JesSIIIca, SaMANNNta, BeLINNNNda"); Their emeny ("The biatch, the stupid girl, slut");

Just imagine spoilt female brats on TV.

It's crazy because I can remember all those words that they used. It’s haunting me! I was happily reading my book (I think Wee Free Men is funnier than Hat Full of Sky... or maybe the girls just KILLED my book! ) when suddenly this girl with really squeaky and 'manja' voice started talking. After certain stations, her friend came in one by one SO DAMN COINCEDENCELY. They started yapping away in front of me. SO DAMN ANNOYING! I couldn't get myself to focus on my book with them chatting away.

I know I know, the LRT is a public place. They can do what ever they want but.. HELLO must they 'announce' it to everyone on the train with their EEKKKKK voice?

I felt so suffocated sitting in front of them. I really couldn't stand it. I know I'm being very very sensitive, but seriously, I was really about to vomit. My head was spinning listening to them and I really couldn't breathe!

I met this bunch in the LRT again today. The girl with the most squeakiest voice sat besides me and OMGGGG they were having the "you are a bitch" and "I miss my baby" and the "Ohh the phone is only RM1.2k, so cheap, I want something more classy lo". I lost focus on my book again (was reading Shadow of a Dark Queen by Raymond E Feast, one of my bro's book, quite a nice book). They more they chatted, the sicker I felt. I tried to block out their voices but I couldn’t!

... you know what, I lost it. I stood up and walked to the other side of the LRT where I no longer and see and hear them. If I sat any longer, I think I would have vomited.

I think I'm allergic to "tau kei mui's"...no offense. But then again, I think I'm being one just by blogging about this. Still.. CANNOT TAHAH LAAAAAA!

All I need is a screwdriver

All I need is a screwdriver. The tool, not the drink ;P


The front.


The back.


Inside.


Behind the front panel.


And here's all the mambo jambo.


I could keep going if I had a solder machine!

I took a detour while doing my 'housekeeping' today. Too much junk gave me the headache. I gathered all my stuff and I was deciding on which to keep and which I should throw out.

I got really bored of making decision so I ended up with the screwdriver in hands and started to dismantle the print switch\buffer thing. In the end... I really ended up with junk. A few circuit boards, many nuts, screws and washers. I had fun... but had to continue cleaning up after that.

Oh... and I found my P2 machine! Super old machine. I wanted to remove the processor but I had no idea how because P2's were slot processor. Wanted to break the thing but my dad was giving the look HAHAHAHA. I ended up throwing the P2 and the AMD.

early sex education

This is a children book published in Germany. Now this is what I call early sex education.

Chinese New Year cleaning

Yep, it's that time of the year again. The spring Chinese New Year cleaning.

My cleaning up findings;

I have PC magazines dated back to Jan 2001! I dug out all my magazines (on the sheft, in the drawers and under the bed :P) and threw them out. I like keeping my magazines actually, but I think it's like to make space for other things.

I have 2 full document boxes filled with my college notes. I didn't throw them out last year because...er... well, I felt kind of 'sakit hati' (the heartache). All my hand written notes, my sweat, coffee stains (actually I don't drink coffee back then but figure of speech ma), my blotches of ink.... my hard work. I didn't have the heart to discard them... but I don't feel much 'pain' in my heart when I threw them today. I didn't throw all of them though; I kept some documentation just in case I would need them. I also have a stack of old computing books (some photocopied hehe) that I won't be using anymore. Anyone wants them? I wonder if I should sell them off... APIIT students.. anyone?

My PC room is a mess. I have stacks of used paper here and there. My CDs are all over the place. And I really have to do something about my PC parts junkyard. I have a few speakers, a few mouse (or in this case… a few mice), a few keyboards, an old AMD RAMless machine, a printer switch and a few CAT-5 twisted pair with RJ45 connector (LAN cable. I bet you didn't know it can sound so canggih hehehe) one of them is up to 10 meters long, tons of telephone cable and... I think my slow dino external burner and will thrown into this junkyard. Ohhh and 2 new VoIP box. Anyone wants to buy the VoIP box?

Some of my animes, DVDs, programming books and Anne Rice books are missing. Must be some where in the house. Got to look for them. Anyone having my PHP book? I have go to keep track on who is borrowing my stuff... I can never remember who has what. Hm.. anyone owes me $$$? HAHAHA.

I have some really old things for keepsake. Still not sure if I want to keep them... Keep or not to keep? ... Hm.. don’t throw then collect dust… throw then …aiyor.. ada sentimental value la. This is giving me a headache. Maybe I should take a picture of it. Keep the pictures and throw the things.

I used to like collecting paper, plastic, shopping and whatever bags. The collection cost me tons of space so I gave all of it to me sister. I kept that habit of collecting though. I have drawers filled with shopping bags again. ARGHHHhhh. Pass then to sis la hehe.

A whole new cleaning day again tomorrow... Yawnnnn

Today is the sixth day of 2006.

Today is the sixth day of 2006. By now I should have my resolutions all figured out, but it's not surprising that I'm still drifting. ...here goes nothing..

I do have some personal goals I want to meet, but that's going to take a few years. What is that? Well, I'm smart enough now not to share it with every Tom, Dick and Harry, Marry, Sarah and Lily. Sometimes I think I just let myself say too much. I can really shut up when I want to, but sometimes I just can't help but chatter away. And when I do, I often notice that I share too much with people I hardly know because of this irritating Miss Smarty Pants ego I have. A few times, people I talk to take what I have said and say it as if it was their comment\idea. Pisses me off. I guess I'm not so 'smart' there by letting people stealing word that came out of my mouth. It's hard to be the 'diam diam ubi berisi' type of person sometimes. ...but I should learn how to keep my mouth shut. So, resolution #1. Talk only when needed\try harder to shut up.

Working full time for a little more than a year has taught me quite a lot. I learnt even more after being ATL. Everyone is superficial, no one is genuine. Observing some colleagues at work have made me a more alert person. I'm learning from people's experiences, learning from my own experience, learning from what people have to say about each other (...especially gossip. I believe that those who gossip are the really 'dangerous and cunning' people), and of course... learning from those tiny indirect words, body gestures and eye contact all that office politics brings upon me. Resolution #2 will be one of my long term goals. Keep out of 'dangers' way and if I land in the path of danger, I will defend myself, even if I have to play dirty. In the work place, it's war. Everyone is superficial, I am everyone. *evil...but I'm just being honest here*

Baking, cooking and eating.... well with all of that I have to really control my weight now. I have reached and went over my ideal weight. Some people still say "You so skinny, eat more la" or "You under weight la" or "Never mind, she can take more, she is like a stick", but really, what do they know. If you are one of then, really, what do you know? I find it so god damn irritating when people say that to me because they don't wear the pants that was once a little over sized but now it's impossible to fit in because it won't button up, it is me who wear's it. Think I'm exaggerating? Well I'm not. The key to looking like a 'stick' it is to 'know how to dress to cover'. #3 Maintain current weight, start an exercise routine and stick to it, and stop eating all side excessive eating! (This is going to be really hard because it seems that I have this tiny compulsive sweet tooth eating disorder according some people... Eat first think later got me and holding on to me too strong) People, don't buy me food... seriously.

Money not enough, so how? I have got a few projects on the drawing board for months now but time is an issue for me. I have got to find time to look for some other income other that my full time job. This year is really going to be hard on me because my expenses have doubled compared to last year. I have got to do something before I'm declared as bankrupt. #4 Do something to improve my finance status.

Everyday I face this problem but I do nothing. I know this is happening, I do care that this is happening, but I do nothing. I give myself excuses, I close and eye and lie to myself, I be patience. But nope, I think there's a limit to everything. I'm reaching that limit. I'm not going to bother anymore. Nope, not anymore. I could not say it was an waste of effort... it was just effort was not appreciated. Maybe I am sensitive and expecting too much, but hey, if I stop bothering, I wouldn't be expecting. No more disappointment. #5 Put myself first before anyone because it is I who loves myself the most and it is only I that can make myself truly happy.

Last, but not least, #6 Get a new job!

... speaking about jobs... another one of my colleague’s is leaving. It's like singing bottles of beer.

20 bottles beer,
20 bottles beer,
1 fell down and broke,
That leaves 19 bottles of beer.

HAHAHA the lyric is not like that but something similar.

Happy Birthday JK!

Never try the carrot cake from CoffeeBean because it taste horrible! Seriously, I'm not praising myself... but I believe I make a better carrot cake than that. I baked one for JK, HAPPY (belated) 21st BIRTHDAY!!!, for his birthday and he too agrees that mine taste much better. *kembang*

Since I was working, I didn't have the time to make it at one go. I had to bake the cake yesterday and do the cream cheese frosting today before the party. But you know what, I forgot to take a picture of it! I wanted one with JK posing with it but I was too busy filling my stomach with chocolate cakes from his party. By the time I remembered, it's all in our stomach. Met some nice people at the party, including one who was my colleague’s ex-colleague! Damn small world wei.

Anyway, I too full, and too tired to continue typing my mind. So I better be off.

*burb*

Bye bye 2005 and hello 2006

Bye bye 2005 and hello 2006. Things will be different\changing this year. I know it will, and I will see to that it happens.

Have a good year, and all the best.