Sexual harrasment

Another video. 18SX. And quite insulting and rude. My apologies in advanced but this is just for lame entertainment.

Is Johari right?

Arena (known to self and others) complex, extroverted, independent, reflective, searching, self-assertive	Blind Spot (known only to others) adaptable, bold, brave, calm, caring, cheerful, clever, confident, dependable, energetic, friendly, giving, happy, helpful, idealistic, intelligent, kind, knowledgeable, logical, loving, mature, observant, organised, patient, powerful, responsive, self-conscious, sensible, sentimental, shy, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense, trustworthy, warm, wise
Façade (known only to self)	Unknown (known to nobody) able, accepting, dignified, ingenious, introverted, modest, nervous, proud, quiet, relaxed, religious, silly, witty

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (0%) adaptable (15%) bold (26%) brave (26%) calm (5%) caring (15%) cheerful (5%) clever (10%) complex (21%) confident (15%) dependable (10%) dignified (0%) energetic (26%) extroverted (5%) friendly (26%) giving (5%) happy (5%) helpful (15%) idealistic (10%) independent (36%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (15%) introverted (0%) kind (15%) knowledgeable (15%) logical (15%) loving (10%) mature (10%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (5%) organised (10%) patient (5%) powerful (5%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (26%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (5%) searching (15%) self-assertive (5%) self-conscious (15%) sensible (5%) sentimental (5%) shy (5%) silly (0%) spontaneous (5%) sympathetic (5%) tense (15%) trustworthy (47%) warm (10%) wise (5%) witty (0%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 28.3.2006, using data from 19 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view teckiee's full data.

Hm... Am I that trustworthy? Looking at the results of my Johari window, I was surprised that people find me as a trustworthy person. 47% man! I really honored.

I'm not saying that I'm a two faced backstabbing big mouth snake, but I don't think I have done anything to show that I a trustworthy person. Plus, I think everyone is trustworthy to a certain extend. I mean we all can keep secrets right? I think I'm more of "forgetful" rather than trustworthy. I hear stuff, I process it, and then forget.

Independent 36%. Ok, this I agree. I never liked being too dependant on something or someone. I feel insecure not able to do things myself. Sometimes I get scolding being too independent ...hehe but I can't help it.

I have my own arms, my two feet. I can fight my own battle and win my own war. It's a nice feeling to know you have flying armies, a fleet of ships, and troops of soldiers’ waiting behind the lines as reinforcements. But it's a superb feeling to finish something with your own sword. (although I might lose an arm or be scar faced)

Energetic 26% Wahahah yes, I can be energetic when I want to be. I believe everyone can be energetic when they are inspired. There was a time (and maybe still is) where I felt the "Leave me alone because I want to be alone", I was totally jaded. Inspiration and passion is the two main factor for me to stay energized. (and of course the sleep la… you think I’m Energizer bunny meh hehe :P)

Friendly 26%. Hm... I'm only friendly to people I want to be friendly. I'm really actually just a bitch. At heart, I think I'm just the thick headed stubborn egoistic antisocial and thinks she the perfect queen of the world.

But I have to be friendly la, I don't want people to hate me ma. (HAHAHAH two faces…)

Bold 26%, and beautiful? HAHAHAHA ok you can stop puking now :P Ok, I agree on this one too. Sometimes I think I'm too bold until it hurts people.

Egoistic ma... orang yang berego-ego pasti boh bold punya la. Tapi I sedar la, terlalu bold sangat bitchy. But then like I said, I'm really actually just a bitch.

Reflective 26%. This one ah... read the previous post on my pre-sleep brain activity and you will know what I mean.

Brave 26%. You know what people say, the braves are usually the stupidest. Hm... I think that's good food for thought for me. Am I actually just dumb?

I don't think I'm brave. I'm chicken shit sometimes. ...and sometimes just too ignorant and blur to think of the consequences before diving into quick sand.

Complex 21%. I believe those who find me complex... knows me well, or don't know me at all. I have confused many people (including myself) with my ideas and believes. Some stay confused because they can't decrypt me. But I don't know man, I'm just weird sometimes. People don't know what I think or how I think or they just think I'm nuts. The nicer people will think I'm complex =)

A person with a unique arty big ambitious imagination will understand me most.... I think.

Oh... Eight is the lucky number.

Web 2.0

Ahhhh I found this at last! With all this Web 2.0 thing growing so fast, it's difficult to keep track of what's new and hot on the web.

Here are some of my favorites,

del.icio.us is a place where you can store all your bookmarks online. You can also checkout other people's bookmarks and actually see how many people (and who) that also have a particular link on their bookmark. There are also other stuff you can do in del.icio.us so register an account for yourself and check it out. This really comes in handy when you loose all your bookmarks on the computer, or need to access your bookmarks on another computer.

Newsvine is Echo("A place to read, write, and discuss the news."); What Newsvine does is that it take news off various sources and push them into Newsvine. There is no need to visit a dozen news sites to read anymore.

Digg.com is where Kevin and Alex of Diggnation (the podcast) gets their podcast agenda from. Digg let's user submit news, stories... any links ... ahhh let me just quote their site Echo("Digg is a technology news website that employs non-hierarchical editorial control. With digg, users submit stories for review, but rather than allowing an editor to decide which stories go on the homepage, the users do.");

And of course there's Gmail and Wikipedia.

Hm.. I have got to check out 43things, Remember The Milk too. And then maybe I'll end up using Suprglu!

Oh and there's Flickr... quite a number of people I know have been using it for quite sometime but I still can't find myself getting an account there yet.

Ahh wait wait one more. This you got to check out. Heard about this from one of the episodes of CommandN.

Ten Ten Ten Ten

What is 10 X 4? 40? No la.. look at the title la. It's ten ten ten tennnnnn. LOL.. ok lame and dry joke.. and so sorry for those who don't get it. Ten more days. (fishtail: the story will soon expose itself)

Gym is... well, good and bad I think. Work and the gym really drain all my energy. I don't have brain and body power to actually get anything else done, ..but on the other hand, I have been having many good night sleeps. I can just *poof* and go to sleep instead of thinking …

…thinking too much before I sleep. I'll plan events for the next day. I'll draft out in my head how my day should flow. I'll even actually dream a little about a meeting or presentation I have to lead if I have to. Bad huh... I guess I'm just a total control freak and a predictable person. If I plan my day's events, there won't be any surprise installed.

Thinking one day a head is one thing. Sometimes I find myself dreaming of what would come up in a week's or month's time. And.... I would sometimes think of preparations if the day really comes. LOL!

Often times I do also find myself reflecting on the current day's events. All the "do and don't" and the "did and did not do" and all the "what if I..." kind of questions. Sometimes I find myself regretting on things I did, or sometimes just getting upset (before I sleep!) with (most often) the tiniest little thing.

Is this actually bad?

I don't think I can stop thinking tho. I can't help it. I'm actually quite blur and ignorant during the day. All the "evil" plotting and decrypting is all done in a batch, before I sleep. Weird rite... but I have been like that since I can "think".

But no la, I don't think I'm that serious all the time. Sometimes I fantasies about me being something else. The "what if I was Amber MacArthur", or "What if my boss promotes me to Team Leader for the new review platform coming soon" or "What if he was my boyfriend?" Hehehe anf of course I control where this kind of dreams leads to and ends... so it's fun. HAHAHA...

Ah well... time to catch American Next Top Model!

12 more days

Dua belas hari lagi.

I can't help but grin today during the meeting. Muahahaha! Too see the looks on their faces...priceless. I did feel guilty for some of them, but, hey! the geek got to do what the geek got to do.

She didn't handle and manage it very well. I mean, those words that came out of her mouth were very selfish. Can't say more here so.... *sign* I guess I will just have to kill someone's ears to listen to my "gossip". Care to listen to what I have to say... anyone?

Oh, and did I tell you that I'm a sucker for food? I blew it big time today. *Large Dark Forest Chocolate Ice Blended* *Chocolate Brownie Cheese Cake* *Salmon Sushi Roll* *One Freaking LARGE (larger that my face!) Walnut Bread* I think I should join some eating contest. I'll be the skinniest winner.

Feeling guilty right now but...arghhh but how can I give good food? Ok, maybe not give up, I have to control but...help me!

13 more days

And the count down begins. 13 more days.

Bla bla here bla bla there but yes, me is too freaking tired to blog. Me is no having energy and brain juice. So this will just another empty entry.

Hand job?

Have stuff to say but I'm too tired.... leave you all with something ...

Renault F1 Pit Party feat DJ Tiesto

Okay, so I did go for the Renault F1 Pit Party. I was at the entrance. I did check out the white lights. Saw a little of the stage setup and screen. But that is all. Why didn't I go in? Well, the tickets was RM80 on the door, plus I had better plans.

Before I go blabbing all about the rave, I want to really thank the Mash dudes for your support! Muahahaha! Arigato gosaimasu! Me and JK actually camped outside the rave at the car park area selling drinks. "Drinks for sale", "Water, Coke, Isomax, Ice Lemon Tea!".

Our business was overall good. Many of our customers came back to us for their seconds and thrids, especially the Mash dudes. We didn't finish selling all of the stock that we brought with us but still manage to make a little profit from the sales. So ok la :)

If you are thinking "what the hell are you doing la, selling drinks and not raving?". Well, yeah. More about that later... cos I did rave a little hehe. Anyway, we did have competitors. On our left and right were other teams of people selling drinks as well. A sugar cane van came along later too, and that took away our business a little. A lok lok van was also parked near by.

Did also manage to learn a few things being an illegal peddler. Hohoho... but it was fun in the end.

I think the rave was overall good. But of course, I can't say much because I was outside all the time. The fireworks was depressing, nothing can still beat RedZone's fireworks. The sound system however was SUPERB. We all could still hear the music very clearly all the way from the car park, and I believe feel a bit of the bass too.

Music was great in the beginning. First two DJs were superb, but it was slow and boring after that until 1.45am. DJ Tiesto started to really rock the crowd after that....but sadly many had already left at that time.

I think one main reason I didn't feel that I have missed much of the rave was because of the sound system. I mean, the music was very clear from my "stall" and I was actually dancing on the tar road and on the path. People looked, I didn't care. It was good for business also ma hehehe.

Oh... and one more thing. Tiesto played my all time favrout track, Just Be!

I'm not too perky these days.

Is it me? Or is it Google? It's so darn difficult to access Gmail and Google these days. Their server is always busy! I think I way too dependant on Google. I have too many active Gmail's and many blogs and podcast on blogger.

Anyway, I'm away from the gym until I get better. I have been sick since last week and it's getting worst by the day. One day of medical leave did no good. Medication only makes me sleepy, and my whole body is aching! Though I'm not sure if it's from my high fever or the gym. *hmm*

Stuff happened at work while I was away in sick bay. *sign* Some people ah.. so darn two faced, damn 9 selfish, and what a jerk off. But expected already la. I'm just glad I stuck to my decision and didn't chicken out la. Then again, can't really blame him because that "big" project is coming, he had to do what he did to retain what is left of his "capable" dogs. He would be in deep shit if he failed the project...but looking at the state of things are going, he might still have a chance of succeeding if the newer and blur'er *ahem* and more loyal *ahem* stuck with him.

Not to say I'm not loyal or what, but I don't see why I have to. I have to be selfish myself. And sorry la, no face given. 6 month might be nothing of some people, but for an inexperience person like me, even 2 months is something!

So whatever la.

Still shity though. I still have to take up my responsibility. And what a bad time to be responsible. Kind of sucks and ironic for me though. I wished I was more of a meanie like the rest. But I know I'm not like that. Furthermore, got to keep my name clean. It's a small world man. I don't know what I might stumble upon in the future.

..ohhh wonder if I should go for Tiesto. Still sick, and haven't even got my tix yet. errrrrrr... go or not to go. Not sure if I'm going to enjoy myself... I'm not too perky these days. Must be getting old... two young girls called me aunty today somemore *cries*

It's aunty che che la if you really want to put the "aunty" there :P

Body Combat

Okay okay it's official, I have a second home. The gym! I'm no more visiting the dull gym at the office but I am a proud member of the Celebrity Fitness gym in 1Utama.

You know la, when one (that means me) start to work, one will tend to be calculative (that also means me). I used to pay RM75 per month for an hour of Hip Hop class weekly. But now I'm paying twice as much ++ but I get to attend unlimited classes. What is best is that 5 out of the 6 classes I attended so far ROCK ARSE!!! Yep... and I have only been a member for a week. I spend too much time on classes that I don't even have time for the other workout. Ohhh but its so worth it!

My favorite class so far is body combat. Imagine doing Mua Tai, karate and taekwando (…hm..David now do you spell taekwando?... I think I need some help with my punching style… I have too sissy and graceful punches) with Duhast playing in the back ground... and that's only the warm down! *wOOt* A really KICK ASS class.

The rest of the classes are mostly dance classes like Street Jam, Latin Mix, G Funk and Hip Hop. Also sweat like madddd la. Syok!

The class that I sucked most was RPM, a group cycling program where the instructor cum DJ spins songs and the group have to cycle according to the rhythm of the music. I almost died in the class... I didn't even last for 5 mins. The 50 minutes class felt like an 2 hours class! Thank god I still hung on and finished the class. My legs were so shaky after that. My goal... got to attend more of that class and must keep up with the class.

There's still so many classes I want to try, but too bad I don't have the time. Got to keep some time for yoga and pleates man.. I have always wanted to try them out... especially pleates.

Hohoho stress at work, but I can't wait for latin mix and RPM tomorrow!

harder that picking a boyfriend

45 mins of listening to what I think is half truth and half bullshit, my colleagues thought I was crying because I came out with a red face. I am sick la! My half of the time my nose is blocked and the other half is a water tap dripping bright green cendol.

Im blardy confused now. The chicken shit in me is surfacing. But chicken shit or no shit, I have got a lot of talking and researching to do tomorrow.

But you know what? Part of me already made up my mind... a few really good points would only make me change my mind. Will see how it goes. This is harder that picking a boyfriend man. Ishhhh...

Hah... want to laugh at someone now...muahahahah

I'm feeling really chicken shit right now

Sometimes I can't care less of what other think of me. Sometimes I get overly sensitive of what other think of me. Sometimes I can't care less of the decisions I make. Sometimes I get overly sensitive and calculative with decisions I make. But it's not often I get panic attacks!

Only time will tell if I have made the correct decision. I know this is something I want, but some how, why am I feeling panicky? What if it is the wrong choice? What if I was wrong? What if I'm not up for it? What if it all goes down to nothing... and what if it's worst!?

...I'm feeling insecure with my decision. But I can't turn back. So no matter what happens, I have just got to win, or lose the right way.

I'm feeling really chicken shit right now. I might as well get bird flu and die.

I have my cups of regrets in the past. Sometimes I have just got to face my stupid, silly, irresponsible and uncontrollable mistakes. I have learnt to move on, I have learn from those mistakes.... but if this turns out to be another one of them... *sign*

I think I'm losing my confidence. Got to get a grip on myself. I don't like these panic attacks I'm getting.

Johari folding Tshirt?

While waiting for the below video to load, why not just head over to my Johari window and click on 6 words that you think best describe me. =)

eye lashes

Those who have short eye lashes wished they had longer eye lashes. Those who have longer eye lashes wished they had curlier eye lashes. Those who have the "perfect" eye lashes, wished their eye lashed won't drop so often as it really irritates the eye.

So the conclusion? Pull off all your eye lashes la hehehe. Ok, I have no idea what I'm trying to say but...ahh you get it la right.

Oh.. and I'm in a really bad shape now. I don't think I have ever been so unfit in my life. I really got to get my arse moving.... and be determine!

P2P traffic clogging broadband

I think he went like "what the F***" when he read this article on The Star In-Tech, printed on Wednesday 1st of March with the title TM Net: P2P traffic clogging broadband. I felt the same way too.

Echo("Peer-to-peer (P2P) traffic is choking up local broadband lines with 20% of users utilizing 80% of the total bandwidth, according to Internet service provider (ISP) TM Net Sdn Bhd.")("Such applications are often left on all day so they use much more bandwidth compared to users who merely use the Internet to surf or chat")("We are not against our customers using P2P. However, it is an unfair situation which needs to be addressed, as we cannot upgrade our infrastructure (merely) for the benefit of the minority");

Ok, I'm a P2P user, and a TM Net customer. I think it's unfair that they blame us for "choking up" their lines. What's the point of providing us the unlimited bandwidth service if they are going to ("We are coming up with a system that will inform users of their bandwidth usage via their monthly bill, and will recommend packages that are most suitable for their level of consumption"). That's like just asking us to pay for the amount of bandwidth we use, beats the purpose of me applying for the unlimited bandwidth package isn't it?!

I'm also curious on TM Net's stats. Is there any privacy issue that TM Net is stepping into here? I wonder what other things they are monitoring on their customers aka me.

If TM Net is providing these packages, they shouldn't expect that users will only use them to "chat and surf the web". Even on their own advertisement, they have stated

Echo("Who will benefit most? Basically, the service will benefit mostly the: Residential customers with heavy Internet usage who have been using the net via 56kbps dial-up or ISDN.")

And that includes P2P. So don't blame the users. We pay for your services.

Park Shuffle II

Woahhhhh... I really have not been dancing for a looooooonnnnnnng time. I better get my arse back to something before I turn into fat orange pumpkin!

I was glad that I went for Park Shuffle II because it made me realized that I have been really enjoying dancing for a long time. ...and I can't shuffle as smooth as I used to! I think I need to start shuffling again so I don't get too rusty.

Reading the article on The Star on the men in tights made me miss ballet a lot. The two guys that were featured was actually in my former ballet teacher's class. I have seen them dance so many times and I really can say that they are good. I have thought of taking up classes again, but... haiss I doing the NATO thing, No Action, Talk Only.

Anyway, here's some videos from Park Shuffle II. Happy viewing. *waves* to the people at Mash

the ad was trying to say...

Hm... referring to my previous post on the breast cancer advertisement, I think it was a really good and very impacting advertisement. I'm glad at least Bernat understood the ad. Anyway, I think you, the readers or my blog, especially Happy IQ and Bottle, needs some education on breast cancer.

To understand the advertisement, you have to understand Brest Self Exam (BSE). In the lesson on BrestCancer.org, the first step to BSE is

Echo ("Begin by looking at your breasts in the mirror with your shoulders straight and your arms on your hips. Here's what you should look for:
* breasts that are their usual size, shape, and color.
* breasts that are evenly shaped without visible distortion or swelling.
");

So, what the ad was trying to say is that if women spend more time examining their breast as often as horny ah pek checking boobies out, more women would have detected breast cancer at the early stage and would have higher chances of surviving it.

Anyway, if you think this do not interest you because you don't have breast and can't care less, then you might want to check this other cancer out. And one more thing, who says men can't get breast cancer?

Some additional info, there's are four stages in breast cancer.
Stage 1 : The tumour measures less than 2 centimetres across. The lymph glands in the armpit (axilla) are not affected and there are no signs that the cancer has spread to elsewhere in the body.
Stage 2 : The tumour measures 2–5 centimetres across, or the lymph glands in the armpit are affected, or both. However, there are no signs that the cancer has spread further.
Stage 3 : The tumour is larger than 5cm across and may be attached to surrounding structures such as the muscle or skin. The lymph glands are usually affected, but there are no signs that the cancer has spread beyond the breast or the lymph glands in the armpit.
Stage 4 : The tumour can be of any size, but the lymph glands are usually affected and the cancer has spread to other parts of the body. This is secondary breast cancer.

And there are three grades: Grade 1 (low grade), grade 2 (moderate grade) and grade 3 (high grade). Low-grade means that the cancer cells look very like the normal cells of the breast. These cancer cells are usually slow-growing and less likely to spread. In high-grade tumours the cells look very abnormal. They are likely to grow more quickly and are more likely to spread.

Breast cancer advertisement from Singapore

Hm...the first Park Shuffle was nice. Wonder is I should go for this... kind of retired from the shuffling scene already.

Paper bags

Tired...

Leave you all with this...