Truth please...the truth

You scared the shits out of me today. Don't ever do that again. I'll never forgive you if you leave me in 'that' way. I’m be the human that will haunt you.

I had confidence in you at first, because I know you better than that. I know you wouldn't. I know you were just emotional when you said those words to her. But I can't help if but wonder if you have left us. She rung me so early in the morning, and her words brought my confidence down because I know what love can do to a person.

I tried making calls. Yes, I couldn't reach you. The whole world couldn't. I told her to look for you, I'm sorry if you didn't like it but too bad. We had to know that you were still with us.

I know I have been busy. I know I'm not being a good friend. But I love you, and you know that damn well. Just bloody scream at my face next time and talk to me. If you think I'm a nagger then tell me to shut up. Just talk to me, and the truth please, because you know damn well you can tell me anything and can handle the truth. or have you already forgotten?

Pineapple tart

I hinted to my mom before, that I didn't want to help out this year in making Chinese New Year cookies. But alas ... too bad for me because I don't have a choice. My mom, sis and me sat together this morning and made pineapple tarts. The final batch is in the oven now.


Home made pineapple tarts

I tried recovering my 4.1gig Sex and The City video files. I failed miserably. So I guess I have to wait another 2 months. I don't have the mood to download it now though; I'm planning to re format all my partitions on my hard disk before the Chinese New Year. Everything seems to be moving so slow. The disk cleanup and defragmenters don't seem to be helping out much too.

I've also started cleaning up my PC room and PC. There's this really good 'dust' cloth by 3M that works magic for me. (You can get it in any supermarket, usually found in the dish washing sponge, the rubber gloves, that kind of section) The cloth is designed to pick up dust and dirt. A little pricy for a ‘rag’ but really does ‘clean up’ work very well. I used to soak my keyboard’s keys with soap and then brush the dirt off with a toothbrush. I just need the cloth now. No soaking or anything, all I have to do is use water and wipe the keys and all the dirt comes off really easily!

Enough about keyboards. I washed my heat sink too. I have been wanting to do that for a very very long time but I can't seem to unhook the plastic protector thingy. My uncle came over today and helped me with that. My PC sounds really good now. It's all dust free and quiet. And the best part is...my system is not overheating anymore! (The overheating is a problem... sometimes slight image processing and overheat my system. The thick layer of dust was the culprit)

This is going to be a long entry...I miss blogging. I miss talking. Read on if you have the time...or if you are not bored with me yet hehehe.

I have finally finished reading The Vampire Armand by Anne Rice and Terry Prechet's (is that how you spell his name?) Wee Free Men. Armand was nice. I loved his past; I loved how Anne Rice wrote about him when he was still a human. And when he became a vampire, there was this part where he had a threesome with his master and his beloved courtesan. *grin* You've got to read it, the story is beautiful.

Wee Free Men was hilarious! It's one of those books when you have a sudden burst of laughter. (It's kind of hard to control myself... I read in the LRT, so imagine all the looks that I got hehehe) I don't want to give any spoilers here... so go read the book. However, there are things that I didn't like about the book. The author kind of ended the interesting storyline with (I think) lame outcome. It's like when you want someone to die, you write, "He saw a rat and died". Then again, a lot of books and movies have endings like that. But I loved it for it's humour. It's not a very descriptive book also, not like Anne Rice's stories (where she can spend a paragraphs describing how a candle light glittered in the middle of the dinning table). A great book for people who want to start reading but have no idea what to read. Wanted to buy 'The Hat Full Of Sky' that was kind of a continuation to the Wee Free Men. The paperback version is not out yet so I guess I'll wait. No money for the hardcover book.

Apple really knows my taste. He introduced me a lot really nice stuff and I'm glad that he Wee Free Women’ed me. HAHAHA. Dinner with him yesterday was funny. We ate at this Chinese restaurant beside Secret Recipe in 1Utama. Nice place and very nice staff. Anyway, we sat down at a table that was not cleaned yet. There were dirty plates and cups on the table. We signalled the staff to clean them up but everyone seem to be confused and ignoring us. Later on I realised that the staff thought that we were asking for the bill! HAHAHA. Food was good.

Apple as usual don’t have his lighter with him, (yalah...every time go out with you 90% of the time you don't have your own light) so he asked a few waiter if they could get him one. (The restaurant had an open concept thing, people sitting outside the air conditioned area could smoke... so they would have lighters right, that's only logical) None seem to have a light so one of the waiters borrowed a lighter from another table. Nice. The funny part of the whole incident was when they wanted to close the restaurant. One of the waiters came and took away our empty dishes and Apple asked him if he had a light, and YES he did. So I said "All along we were asking the wrong person, all your other colleagues didn't seem to have a light" As he was walking back to the kitchen with the empty dishes, he came back and said "Do you have a cigarette?" and then he left. HAHAHAHAHA me and Apple burst out laughing. That waiter was a funny guy. If you didn’t catch the joke…ah then never mind.

And then... I came up with another one of my lame theories. All I have to say is...I mean...all I have to ask is "I have a nice guy with a cigarette looking for a lighter, is there a nice girl with a lighter that is looking for a cigarette?" I have your nice guy... HAHAHAHAHA ...ok lame...but what the hell.

My files!

Someone shut downed my PC when Shareaza was verifying my 4.1gig Sex and The City Season 2 video files. And now it all corrupted! I'm pissed.... VERY VERY PISSED.

Why must this happen? SPOILS MY BLOODY DAY. FYI I had a superb day. I finially got my faulty ATM card replaced, I manage to get a little bit of work done in the office, I got 'lost in clothes' at MNG, had a nice dinner with Apple, bought another 2 of Anne Rice's books, ...but why... why this. Why was my PC off when I got back!? ARGH! It took me 2 months to get that whole 4.1gig file! I want to cuss so I'm gonna. FUCKkkkkkkkkkkk.

I miss tonight

Yes, I did actually go tonight. I just got back home but I miss them all already!

I had a really good time today. Work was ok. My supervisor announced my additional responsibility as Backup Gatherer Monitor for Asia Pacific. Nothing too hard to handle. I'm just a back up person anyway. But all the rest was good. I felt relaxed today. I took my time to do my work. Maybe because my project manager left work on time today. Me and Jaya stayed back.

Soloh came to pick me up at about 8.45. We left for Decanter to have dinner and then went to meet up with Jin and the rest at Breakers afetr that. My dinner was HOT and VERY VERY SPICY! I ordered Thai fried rice. I think they should rename it to 'chili padi fried rice'. I think they used about 20 chili padi's for my plate of rice! Even Soloh said it was too damn spicy just after one spoon full. I didn't manage to finish it, my stomach and throat was burning up.

Anyway, Breakers was the bomb. I love the place! That's my kind of place. Nice people, nice music, (They played old school and new trance tracks! A few track from Tiesto too!) relaxed and 'I don't give a damn' atmosphere, and most of all... tons of pool tables! and Foosball too. There were dart boards too. Breakers was opened for so long and only now I've discovered it. Hehehe a bit ulu but forgive me la ;P

Played a few rounds of foosball and pool with Jin, Dave, Soloh, YC, another david... and a few of YC's friend. The rest of the time I was just catching up with Jin. It's been a really long time since we hung out and chat. I miss you already!!! We left for Spicy afetr that to grab something to bite. 'Chicken matsalah' should be 'Chicken Masalah'. Yeeash.

The men are at Williams now for their second round of Megatroni and Spaghetti meat balls. Hehehehe hopefully they won't become Buffaloronni heheheh HAHAHHA. I miss this kind of us. I miss APIIT like when we hang out like this. I miss the lame and serious conversations. I miss playing pool too!!!

Soloh, thank you for dragging me there. I owe you one.

Busy

Busy Busy Busy. Very tired. I need rest. Sorry all that I won't be able to make it tomorrow. I really want to be there, but I can't get off work. Just got too much to catch up.

The training today was very boring and waste of time. Didn't really learn anything new. The only thing that was useful was the pile of notes and manuals we all got.

There will be a meeting tomorrow. A lot is going to happen. .... *sign*

I need rest. Nite people.

I dedicate my life to work...

I will give up life for work....*ahem...yeah right* But true for this month. Going to be doing a lot of over time to catch up on my back logs. ARGH! I've got a whole day of in-house training this Thursday, so one more day of back log! OMG it's all piling up. You know what they say "Sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit", so I've got to finish all of the sikit sikit!

I stayed back till 8pm today. Wanted to stay longer but it was already damn dark. Actually working nights are quite relaxing. My boss went home early today, and my other work mate is still on leave, so I had the whole room to myself. I was playing trance wahahahah! It kept my going. Reminds me of my good old days where trance kept my brain working during all the long hours and assignments, projects and programming.

In case you thought I forgot about the two other findings, well I do remember. I just don't have enough time to type it down. Weekend yah...hopefully.

Self assessment

Silly me, I sent my blog entry to the wrong domain. HAHAHA nope... my email bounced after 4 hours with a timeout error. I didn't have the 'moment' to rewrite the email again so...ahhhh never mind la.

Today is a good Monday. I slept quite late last night but manage to pick myself up from bed and got through the day without falling asleep. Things were good at work today. I was called in for my one-to-one self assessment interview before lunch. I handed in my assessment last week. My team leaders and supervisor had a look at it and assess me as well. It turn out the ratings I gave myself were about the same as the ones they gave me.

I'm still very fresh at work, so not much to say about me yet actually. The major assessments were all skipped, however the rest that applies to me ...ahh, I'm happy with my results. My team leader have no complains of my work so far, and the other said I had no problems understanding what I do. I gave minimal problems to them hehehe. Both rated my performance and cooperation to be good. I was happy to see that my supervisor (even though I have not worked with him directly before) had confidence in me too. Quote("Good. You are above our expectation. You are the attitude that the team is looking for.") *kembang* Then again, I'm still so new to the whole team. His complements will help me boost my confidence... but I still have a lot to work for. The beginning has just begun.

I'll be assessed again next month. I'm planning to improve on my ratings, if not maintain my stand as a "Good" team player. Hehehe but you know la, I damn greedy and ber'ego-ego, I don't want to be good, my name is Excellent. HAHAHA. Aie, but ...I know, a lot of but's...but hor... I'm afraid all this will just make me over confident and too much of an egoistic bitch. Cannot man, I don't want to be that. Hais... I guess I'll just do what I have to do now and wait until I get more feedback on my work performance.

Now the only worry I have is finishing all my back logs before the end of the month! I don't think I can submit my work on time! YIKES! There goes my rating!

Email blogging

Like a typical geek, I always start my day with a little surfing. Yep...I allocate enough time to spend quality time with my PC every morning. ...I'm serious. *sign...ahahahaha* Anyway, I came across something really disturbing... not something you want to encounter with early in the morning. Have a look at Jin's blog. Pregnancy, STD's and abortion.

I've got a lot of opinions on these topics actually. I've still got a lot of abortion knowledge that I remember from my final year project in APIIT. Can't blog much now because it's 6.52am. I've got to be going. I'll be email blogging from work today, if I have the time, and if this email blogging feature works.

Have a nice day =)

Life is about 1234 and 6789

LOL! Sean is so funny! Echo("And remember, life is all about being 1234, and 6789"); What happen to 5? We live 1 to 4, break down on 5, pick ourselves up at 5.5 and live life again at 6? *...hmmm I have no idea ...ah forget it* Anyway, remember I used to have arty Thursday? I have not been posting Thursday theme often these days, however... I found something nice that Mr Triple Dash did.


Grief

He did this from a photo of an Indian man who lost his home during the tsunami. Very simple but very powerful drawing don't you think. I don't know why but somehow I feel that his man in his drawing will turn into a monster. It scares me in some sort of way. But I like it... goes well with the new color of my blog too! Hehehehe.

I hope you all notice that I have changed the layout and color, and yes (Zhong) you are at the correct blog =) Big Head Big Hat is no longer orange, but Ribena! LOL! I still love orange though, orange is still me. But I just need a change, my life is moving on and so is everything else, hence I need another color to reflect my life on. You know la, new kind of life needs a new color...something like that.


L-R: Cheery coke, Coke in a mini can, Sprite Remix BerryClear, Fanta in a mini can and Coke C2 (less sugar)

Anyway, I found interesting cans in Giant the other day. It seems to me Giant import Coke and Sprite from Dubai! Yep, I bought them... and they cost man. RM2 for the big can and RM1.70 for the smaller onces. But a small price tag for my collection. The cans are different, it's like my coke can from Italy. The top of the can is actually more slanting compared to Malaysian coke cans.

Second finding 101

Okays, I'm wrong, I don't think these, including the previous post are called theories; it's just something I have realised. It's should be called Teckiee's findings 101. Anyway, I had time to blog surf all my favourite blogs today, came across an entry that I laugh my brains off! Don’t mess with papi and mami man… and Yiyi too when she grows up. Hehehe.

Well, back to topic Teckiee's findings 101.

Second 'U.S company, big company, I bet the pay is good and you don't have to do a thing'. Yeah right, I used to think that way too. So what if it's a U.S based company?

When I think of some of the statements I said, I feel kind of stupid and naive. Working in/for a "big", "strong", "established", "cash and asset rich" and all well known company do no necessary guaranty you good benefits, a good pay and a good future. And about 'you don’t have to do a thing' statement, well, I only wish. For now, I think it’s all up to me, up to ourselves to make things happen.

I used to be like 'Wahh! You working there ah...not bad wei'. But now, hehhhh I don't think I can really go Wahh! anymore. I think certain companies are over rated, just like shuffling. Everyone seems to want to be in that company, but seriously, internally people working in/for certain companies know it's all just an overboard of 'name' advertising.

I don't want to name companies here la, I don't want to get sued you know, but anyways that's what I think only la, I think people should think about it too. For me, a bit to late to realised because I'm already in a ''U.S company, big company, I bet the pay is good and you don't have to do a thing' Heh...

All I can say that humans are greedy; we all want more of what we have. We all want better of what we have. I admit I'm greedy too, but after doing the math, I think I should be greedy. Then again I can't be the dog with two bones right? I'm happy with what I have, will cherish what I have. But that doesn't mean I have to stop there ma right? Yooshh! Gambatteh! We all should now limit ourselves. Our minds are much more capable that what we think of them.

I went off topic but ROARRR! I feel pumped up right now. Feeling working...OMG

I've got four theories I want to share with everyone. First, the theory of 'Wah Computer Science? You? But you are a girl'. Second 'U.S company, big company, I bet the pay is good and you don't have to do a thing'. Third, 'Clubbing at RUSH, Eastin Hotel'. And last but not least 'The single life'.

I think my post will be too long if I shared all theories today, so only one theory today. First, the theory of 'Wah Computer Science? You? But you are a girl'.

Okay, someone (FYI this someone is a female) said this to Jin once. Echo("First class? You? I thought girls are not good at computer stuff?"); Well, I felt insulted for Jin, I mean what was that statement suppose to mean. It's ok to say it once, well majority of girls just to not like programming and computer stuff, but many guys as well! This someone said it a few times and rub it in. If I were Jin I would have just retort. If you are shity at a certain thing, doesn't mean the whole world is right?

It's the XX chromosome thing also. I mean I know plenty of chicks who can do programming and actually enjoy it and are good at it. Why is there a thinking of "WoW! She's a com science student, she's good" You mean girls not studying computer related topics are of no good? Why are girls generally looked down on when it comes to IT? Why is there a Hoo Haa over IT chicks?

If you put Mary and Tom together, both from the same college, both in the same course, both in the same class, both with the same intelligence, somehow people will just think that Mary is more capable compared to Tom. Why is that?

Why can't people see me, a female IT person, as equal of a male? I find it very unfair for the guys.

Now I know why working husbands prefer their wives to stay at home, be the woman who cooks delicious dishes, cleans the house and give them pleasure (yeah you know what I mean).

I'm so worn out at work again. I just realised that my job is harder that it seems. The earlier 2 work area I did at work at spoon fed to me. All the information was collected for me, all I had to do was review following the procedures. But since yesterday, taking up the responsibility to review global operation servers, my mind and body have died'ed. I had to keep redoing my reviews because of mistakes I have made. I have to review 18 folders, each with 13 standard reports, and I'm at a back log reviewing them!

I do not only have to built reputation this time, but also to built up my own database of information and contacts across the globe by myself. This is not going to be easy. I'm starting panic already, but I have to do it, I know I can do it. I'm trying to be more independent at work too, don't want to bug my team lead with questions. If I can get pass this stage, it will be good for me in the future.

My project manager and supervisor is going to have a 1 to 1 interview with all of us again, for our 'self-assessment', to know where we stand, and to know if we are going to be permanent in the WISE-GSM team out team is permanently fixed in to CCSC (I think), another department upper in the department hierarchy. WISE-GSM is actually still project based, and when the project closes in late February or early March, the team will be permanent, and more work will then start pouring in. I know I'm being too ambitious, but I hope to be able to work with my team leaders and supervisor more closely when things start coming in.... if you know what I mean ;) Then again, I just hope I can be what the team needs and not be looked down on because of my age.

I have already filled in my self-assessment form, but I have only been in the team for a month, there's not much I can say about myself. I hope my team leaders put in a good word for me.

Going to catch up with lots of sleep today. 9++ hours of work made me sick. I wish I had a wife husband to pamper me until I get well. Hehehe Husbands… love your wives yah! *yawnn* nighty nite.

Ok, a quick entry.

I have been super busy since Saturday. Hanging out with my favourite fruit, then on Sunday I went shopping with my mom and sister. I was looking for slacks for work, but I ended up buying fabric to tailor them. More about that later. We went shopping for cook ware and Teak wood furniture. A lot of fun but it was very tiring. Work today was...arghhh. All I can is I stayed back until 6.45pm. And but the time I got to the LRT station, it was jammed packed with people! The next time I stay back, I have to make sure I stay back till 8pm to avoid all the human jam. Then, was suppose to have a mamaking session with wT and the gang, Maggie will be there too! I miss her man...but darn I can't make it because I have to prepare my work for tomorrow!

I can't believe I brought my work home. NO NO NO! I can't do that man. Work is work. Home is to relax! No more working at home!

Ok, fabric. 100% cotton fabrics are expensive! Yeeashh. I spent RM140 on 3 pieces of cloth! Not cheap man, about RM35 to RM45 per metre. And that's like the cloth only, RM50 for workmanship. So it's like RM140 + (RM50 X 3) = RM290. I think I'll stick to ready made pants next time. It would cost me a little more or a little less, but it would definitely save me time! I don't have to spend so much time looking for cloth and stuff.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day again, don't think I'll be back early again. Anyone up for dinner in KLCC?

My plan to do something crazy didn't work out today. I was planning to go for a 3 in a row movie spree alone today, something I have done in the pass but haven't done for a long long time. My dad had to use the car so I can't hang on to it.

But then, Apple called me, and the plan was on again! But we took time on the road and wasted time looking for a parking space, plus the queue was very very long. We made changes and opt for a 2 in a row instead. Wasted time window shopping, visiting the RO expo and hitting the arcades. Para Para for RM1 only now in mid valley! YES!

We then hit the cinemas. First movie we watched was Bi-shit (wahahaha) Jones Diaries. The movie was I think quite funny, but a lot of censoring going on. Better to get the uncensored version. All funny sex talk, retorts and jokes were all cut off. Overall ok la. The ending was touching.

Next movie was Meet the Fockers! Whahahaha something you wouldn't want to miss. Very funny stuff. Dog shagging the cat, Gaylord having a 15 year old son?, super tanker trailer and undercover CIA office, and sex therapist and the positions...hahaha good stuff. I enjoyed the show.

It was already 10pm when we left Mid Valley. Wei Tieng called out of the blues, she said our form 2 siow siow kakis were meeting up for a drink, so of course I couldn't pass that up! Me and apple headed to RedCode in Phileo Damansara to meet up with Wei Tieng, Mun Ee and Chiew Teck. wT and Mun Ee's boyfriends were there too. Then later on Raymond dropped by for a little while. All of us didn't stay there for long though, the place wasn't an ideal place to do some catching up, so we all decided to head to CoffeeBean in SS2. Me and apple got lost in the parking lot while exiting...hahaha...can't seem to find his car.

I was feeling really tired already actually, but we headed to CoffeeBean anyway. It's luck that I didn't go home, cos I got to see a few of my secondary school friends again! Paul and Wei Chnoong came. And then How Chek, Wei Qwen and Wei Siang dropped by to say hi before they head for the Garden Rave in Taman Desa. (The Garden Rave got raided at 12.30am according to some resources...hmmmm) Everything was fun, until Coffeebean's staff started to indirectly *shooo* people off.

Overall great day. Thanks dude! But I'm super hunger now cos all I ate for the whole day was 2 slices of American chocolate cake and a dorayaki cake! I need Maggie Mee!

Ah... Mr Triple Dash sent me a really useful link.

http://s10.yousendit.com/ It's a site where you can store whatever files on their server and they'll keep there for a week. Nice. "No passwords to share, no software to install, no accounts to create, and no full mailboxes" But onely a week, better than nothing lo hor.

So, here's the videos from the Park Shuffle. Remember the link will only work for a week. File size is 22.1Mb. You need ZIP, or any software to is capable to decompress .zip files. All videos are in .mov format. You'll need quick time player for that.

http://s10.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3PXDU2LARZSA508WVLZVSN674C

Woah! The Park Shuffle rock arses!

PS was actually scheduled as a closed event, venue at Bandar Utama Park on the 15th of Jan. But due to over and fake advertising the organiser Siew Pak Choy (SPC) had to fake the postponement of the event. But there was no postponement, but a brought forward. Only the invite list knew about this but what the hell... people came wOOt!

Me and Zhong headed to the venue at 8pm. But it took us a quite a while to reach because of a jam caused by a halted car. We reached about 8.45pm, little people was there.

After that was all a blur. When the crowd started to pour in, I only can help myself by taking videos and people in action. Everyone was shy at the first, only SPC and a few others where dancing. The rest (like me) just watched. Well, I didn't really take much pictures and video after that because I was to busy shuffling. Hehehe. Sweat like a pig! My favourite spot was at the back, away from the crowd where it was cooling. No one there to step on me and there were large steps to dance with.

People came, people go. I saw plenty of my secondary school friends. Saw a few APIIT friends too! Also saw familiar strangers faces. It's like a mini rave going on man. The park security guard came and questioned SPC and a few other organisers, but I think all went well because they left after that. However they kept an eye on us.

The crowd was superb. Everyone was fun, and very sweaty! hehehe. Meet a few new friendly people. (One of the girls, I think, would make a nice girl friend shuffler. Damn, if only I were a lesbian HAHAHA) The speakers surprisingly worked really well. It put a lot of raving/shuffling 'feel' to the atmosphere. The music was so so though. I think there's room for improvement there. Hayden (a famous Australian shuffler) had to pick tracks from his IPod (linked to the speakers), and there were blanks blanks in between shuffling.

Overall I had a blast. (Great organising SPC, Win and Alex!)

Then again, I could have had double blast if not for some incident. It's cruel to pretend that something didn't happen. Babies don't walk over night. A chick don't hatch over night. Lovers can't be friends over night. Enough said. I don't want to go on and on about is already said. I'll just sink in to Vampire Lestat's sorrow if I do. (You've got to read Anne Rice's books, she's the bomb! Although she stopped writing the vampire chronicles already) I want Wee Free Man. ye' wann toy-lut!

I'm going to do something crazy tomorrow! wOOt! hopefully la... got to plan... Good night shufflers. See you guys at SP2 man!

Only a few pictures turned out. I've got a few videos, but no webspace, so email me if you want videos.


The so few that was there early. The speakers and woofer. Good stuff. Can hear the music across the park from the car park.


Phat pants all over. The crowd start to pour in.


Not much people dancing at the early stages. more on lookers...hehehe like me


Reflectors effects comes out real good on camera.

Tuesday
3pm
Team lead: Meet me at my place at 4pm. Got to brief you on your addition work
Me: Ok

4pm
Me: *Walks to his place. Waited for him while he finish off some of his work.*

4.15pm
*still waiting*
Team lead: *talks on the phone, discussing some stuff*
Me: *reads the newspaper*

4.30pm
Me: *Ah bu neh neh ah bu neh neh HEI! hei hei in dai po ren geh... ne ne sa pa ri, abu bo cheng ehh*
Me: *make sliver bubbles*

4.45pm
Team lead: Eh chian, brief you tomorrow la.
Me: *....* OK

Wednesday
Morning
Me: What time should I see you?
Team lead: I'll ring you.

Afternoon
Phone: *idle* *idle* *idle*

Late afternoon
Team lead: *walks in to the room to have a meeting with a group of people*
Team lead: *after the meeting* Eh Chian, tomorrow ah.
Me: *...* Heh...ok

Thursday:
No electricity.

Friday
10.30am
Team lead: Come see me in 15 minutes.
Me: Okays!

10.15am - 12noon
Team lead: *occasional phone calls, emails, people disturbing the process of briefing*

2.30pm - 3++
Team lead: *left his cubicle to attend a "short discussion"

3.50pm (I leave work at 4pm today! Faster wrap up!)
*team lead walks in*
Me: Hey so, I think I'll get it. If's there's anything, then only I ask you la
Team lead: Err...our (referring to me and him) meeting is ajourne, you don't have to work on these folders already. Gheeta will be on them.
Me: *ahhhh what!* Ohhh Ok. *buang masa aje, aku duduk kat situ buat macam patung simpan habuk je* *ahh well, at least I know some of Gheeta's work now. Good to have some additional info on people's work*
Team lead: So how's your current work now. All up to date? Got back log?
Me: *HAHAHAHA back log? Impossible man, I'm too free to have back logs* Ah, no la, all done already. Just some events that are not closed, still waiting for the customers emails.
Team lead: Oh good, you can go close up, and wrap up your work. Pass your work to Gheeta, she's pick up from there. (Ghetta is another new hire, just hired a week before me)
Me: WHAT!!!! WHY!!!!???? *oh shit, I'm in big trouble, I'm going to get fired!!!*
Team lead: Starting 15 Jan (that is tomorrow) you will be reviewing global operations.

ARGHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I don't now to feel happy or sad. I love the work I'm currently doing. I'm already familiar with the work that I do and have spent 2 weeks building up my repo with the analyst I correspond with. Why must I change? *sobb sobb*

Me: Aiyorrr why!? I got the hang of my folders already!....=( Ok la. See you on Monday....

*walks away*

Team lead 2: *looks out her room* Eh Chian...make sure you are here on Monday! *gave me the pity smile8

HAISSSSS. I'm afraid of global operations!!! I always over hear my project manager talking about global ops global ops and how important and big it is. Echo("All eyes are on us you know, we have to make it happen") I damn scared laaaaa. Howwwwww?! My superiors will definitely be there to brief me and help me with it initially but I have no confidence... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I've heard people over in global ops and 'ganas' people. Later kena bomb on email then I die la. Will give bad impression la. Aiyorrr aiyorrrr *cries*

I was having lunch at Genki Sushi with Jin and David today. I was enjoying my sashimi when the lights flickered.

12.30 noon, the whole KL City Center "shut down". Or I think I should say the whole of South Malaysia shut downed.

The lights went off, the air from the air conditioning stopped blowing, the conveyer belt rotating sushi came to a halt. David then tried to press for hot water to refill his green tea, the water that was running on an electric pump didn't work either. I had to leave early to head back to work, so I left early.

When I was walking out Suria KLCC, everyone was on their phones, walking down the escalator because everything was not working. I stepped out into the KLCC park and walked back to ExxonMobil under the hot sun just to find a group of about a 150 staff were standing outside. Soloh who called David earlier at Genki Sushi also said that his office was in a black out state.

I had to hang around the outside of the office. The security guard guarded the emergency exits so no one could enter for security reasons. No one could enter because the security gate did not work as it was powered by electricity.

About 1.15pm, an announcement was made to the staff outside the building, we were all asked to gather at the planned evacuation area, but no one did. The rest of the staff in the building was also evacuated. I called Jin again, and she said that there was still no electricity in KLCC. Zhong was in Port Klang, same thing there. Jun Kun was stuck in a jam in Cheras, the traffic lights went out. Same thing with Eva's office too. The only person I know of who was still enjoying the wonders of electricity was Apple!

Me and my colleagues end up in front of the car park taking about the possibilities to go home. We sat around until 2.45pm. Then the management announced that we could leave. Those who parked their cars in the basement will not be able to get their cars out. Those of us who have wallets, documents, keys and other belongings will have to wait.

I feel kind of guilty then, because my initial lunch was left in a colleagues room. A McValue Meal, double cheese burger! It's going to stink up her room by tomorrow. I better remember to bring some air freshener and perfume to get rid of the smell for her tomorrow.

Anyway, I didn't bother to go up and take me belongings. My handphone, purse and employee tag was with me so I just left work, wearing my heels. (My poor legs) I shared a taxi with 2 of my other superiors so the fare didn't kill me. *phew* When I reached the LRT, I found out that they closed. I don't know how to get to KLCC tomorrow without the LRT! Hopefully the electricity will be back and everything will be running smoothly.

I just pray that my belongings will be there at my cubicle when I get back. My CD's, my bag, my shoes, and my mp3 player.

L - R: Coke in a can, Coke in a bottle, Pepsi Fire in a can, Pepsi in a bottle, Pepsi in a can

Zhong is back from his business trip in HatYai, and he bought me stuff for my collection! WEEEE!I was actually expecting only a can of coke and Pepsi, but whahahhaha I got more than that! THANK YOU ZHONG! I love the Pepsi fire can and the coke new year 2005 edition can! He even put it in the fridge for me hehehe. I'm going to leave it outside for a bit, until the cans and bottle is room temperature, then can I only put it in the display cupboard.

Anyway, my job agent Prakrash came to ExxonMobil today. He gave me a free pass for a movie ticket to TGV. Yes! Too bad it's only for one person. But then, better than nothing. I'm planning to use it to watch Phantom of the Opera. I have been wanting to watch it all this while but made no plans to do so. There's also Kung Fu Hustle to watch. Maybe I should do a three in a row again. Haven't done it in a long time.

Other than that, things are okay I guess. Except a third wave hit me...yet again. I really have no energy to swim already. I'm tired of all the bullshit and lies that the world brings on me. So damn fake. I just want to drown and make everyone who loved me come to my funeral. But I don't want to die. Don't give me your white roses just yet because I love myself too much. I don't want to die, not now. I guess I have to grab on to what I have left, and sail with the next ship that comes along. Thank you for those who came with a ship. And to the anonymous ice-berg (if you know who you are, make yourself known to me, I want to meet you), thank you for sinking mine. If it's not for you, I would not have realized that idiots do exist.

And my feelings from this morning disperse? NO. My 'alone time' walking to and from work helped a little but what seemed like a peaceful (at least peaceful for my mind) evening turnout to be an awakening for me.

I'm very calm now. So all words used on this entry are not based on my 'all pissed off and insulted' feelings I had this morning, though I can say I feel even more insulted now. This morning was the first wave; I got hit harder by the second wave I got in the evening. Now, how nice is that?

I don't know where to start. I just have too much to pour out. I have no idea where this blog will lead to... but here goes...

Have you ever felt so disappointed and insulted in your life until you would actually give a big tight slap towards someone you have feelings for? That was how I felt this morning, even now. Actually I feel even more insulted and disappointed now, but the melancholy of the whole issue just blew my top. In the movie 'The Mexican', Julia Roberts said "When enough IS enough?" To Brat Pitt there is no enough. But for me, this is where I draw my line.

After everything that happened in the past, I still had faint for what I'm holding on. But I lost it all today. The insults and disappointment just overwhelmed me. It's like what Mr Triple Dash (---) quoted "If an enemy were insulting me, I could endure it; if a foe were raising himself against me, I could hide from him. But it is you, a man like myself, my companion, my close friend." It is you, someone whom I thought understood me, well, I think wrong. But I still don't get it, how can one be such an IDIOT even after repeatedly being told to the face seriously.

I still have much to say. But more is less, and less is more. I'm just sick of explaining myself. I don't have too. I don't need to. I know I'm not that idiot. That's enough for me.

All I have left to say is a line of advice for non-idiots that get what I mean. It took me so long to realise that "When there is no trust, there was no trust".

I've never felt so god damned INSULTED in my life. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG ARGHHHHHHHHHH! I usually don't take insults this sensitively, but... you ... you... I'm seriously so disappointed, so so so HURT and I feel DAMNED INSULTED... until my very bone marrow I can feel the insult. How can one be such an IDIOT!

*^&&^$%^$)(#$#@%^ I really have no comment already. I need to work.

The process of Carpeting Grass

The grass and soil arrived at about 4pm. All of us (dad, mom, aunty, uncle, Li Keng, Chen Yoon and me) played with mud until 6.30pm! *phew* Cleaning up was a mess because the whole porch was filled with mud.

A reminder, remember to wear gardening gloves. All of us didn't because we didn't have any. I ended up getting my nails chipped and dirt in my fingers and mud all over my arms. There's more of a reason to wear them if you are afraid of 'earthy creatures' like 1 cm long red ants! Earth worms, millipedes, centipedes and even a queen termite! I didn't find the worms and stuff disgusting (actually earth worms are very interesting creatures, I've got to get some really soon), but the sad thing that was my finger got bitten by the ant. The pain is excruciating!!! The bitten area swelled a little but it's all ok this morning. Anyways, here's the process! It was fun!


Sand + Earth = The soil for the bottom layer of the garden.


Grass...duh


You'll have to lay out the soil evenly so that the grass will grow more beautifully. You can use a stick to check if its level.


Or you could use those cement smoother/flattener thingy.


And then you can get all messy and muddy laying the grass over the soil.


You'll have to use something heavy to flatten the grass after all is done. There will be small bumbs and stuff, so make sure to flatten them. Use something heave, but not a bench la ok. It doesn't work. A better idea is to use the 'changkul' or the shovel to compress the soil at the bumpy areas. Make sure you don't water the grass first! The muddy area will make it harder to flatten the surface.


Remember to flood you lawn with plenty of water for the next week or so. You can stop doing that if you 'feel' that the grass roots have reached the layer of soil at the bottom.


Cleaning up is problem. I have to remove the soil from my slippers a few times through out the whole process of laying out the grass.

Ahhh I freaking tired! I was at my cousin's new home in Putra Heights the whole day this morning. I woke up early to help my mom cook for the open house. After that it's just relaxing over at his new place.

I'm not going to blog more but I'll let the pictures I took do all the OHHH's and AHHH's. We all then spent the late afternoon and early evening helping my cousin lay out grass! Hard work I tell you. More about that tomorrow.


Room 1


Room 2


Master bedroom, leftside. Home office. *wOOt* sweet stuff


Master bedroom, the bed. Looks real good, blood red satin!


This is what you'll first see when you enter the house.


The hall. This is my fav place in the house. Queer Eye style.


The other half of the hall. The light's really make the room cozy. It's actually spot lights that focus the shine on different areas of the hall.


The TV area. It's fitted into the wall.


I love the lightings. A real chill out, relaxing and sexy atmosphere.


The dry kitchen.


Dinning room. The room looks kind of plain cos the decos for the room are not done yet. I think there should be paintings and a mirror.


Lightings lightings lightings!! ROCKS ARSE!

Post Tsunami effects: Those are not rubbish and empty plastic bottles. Click on the picture to enlarge. Those are dead bodies washed to shore. I have heard that some parties pretend to help clear the dead bodies, but in fact chopping their fingers and limbs off, looting from the dead. How sick can the world get?

I was just chatting with Jin on the phone just now and some how in the conversation, she reminded me about a few important things back when I was looking for a job. We were both once panicky because the whole world seems to be working expect us. Well, friends who are still jobless/bumming, don’t panic and just enjoy your holidays first. Take all the time in the world hunting for a job you want. Don't jump into the first thing that comes along.

Looking for 'the job’ is like looking for 'the right man’. People say just go for what ever that comes first, then slowly hunt for a better job later. I used to think that too. But thank god I didn't jump into my thoughts. You won't want to just marry any guy and look for a better man later right? You would have to go through ‘the pain in the ass’ to file the divorce (and maybe split your kids!) as like writing your resignation letter. (and giving that 1 2 months advance notice, waste time man)

Now that I'm a little more alert about job hunting, here's some of the things I think one should do.

1. Think of something you would like to do long term. Nope, don't think about how much the job will pay. If you like doing something, you'll be good at it, thus you'll end up being good at what you do hence a good pay. Imagine yourself in the job, think of worst scenarios that may happen. Stuff like controversy, social, communication, management, etc including getting fired. If what you had in mind is your own business, go ahead man! Don't limit yourself.

2. Next is looking for the right company. Look for an organization than can give you what you want. Sometimes establish companies can't give you what you want. For example if I was looking for programming exposure, working for a well establish software house will not really expose me to every possible programming language used, however a fresh start software house will work me like a DOG. I would have to get my hands dirty into all sorts of languages, databases and technologies. It's kind of depending on what you want. Knowing what you want is important.

However, getting experience and exposure is just two things once should consider. There's job stability to consider if you are not planning to job-hop (then I think it's more advisable to stick to a more stable company). Then there's the pay and benefits factor. Again, it's all depending on what you want.

3. You should get at least 8 to 12 organizations you would like to work with. Do all your research on them. Google them, ask your friends/relatives/contacts about the working environment and history. Get their HR department contacts, email or telephone. Write an impressive cover letter. (Make sure you spell check it and grammar-proof it if your ‘England’ if yours is less impressive like mine HAHAHA) Don't be lazy; don’t write a generic cover letter. It pays if you put individual effort to all of your cover letter. Taylor them to the specific job and organisation you are applying for. Attach your IMPRESSIVE resume along with all your certificates and stuff. Scan them and attach them if you are sending through email.

Can't get their contact? Well, if you want to get into the organization, make some effort to get them. Look it up in Google or the Yellow pages. If there's no email address, there's sure to be a telephone number. Ring them up, ask for the HR department. Speak to whoever is available. Make sure you are polite and be brief and concise. Get information on how to submit your resume to them. You may also ask them for their HR email address. No email no telephone number? Well, 'chow siong moon', head to their office and talk to the people there. There should be some administration clerk who will be able to help out.

The important thing is to show them that you are really keen on working with them.

4. Okay, let’s say you get lucky and the organization calls you up for an interview, please be prepared. One question that 100% will be asked is "So, tell me more about yourself" Think about it. Be prepared for it. Don't tell them about your family and stuff like that. Tell them your interest that relates to the job/organisation you are applying for. Tell them your education/working background. Stuff like that.

Also, be prepared for technical questions that relates to your job you are applying for. For example, if you are applying for a toilet cleaner job (HAHAHAHA), please know your washing detergent, scrubs and stuff like that. Be prepared for non-technical and out of the scope/topic questions too! Buck up on your general knowledge. Your interviewer may ask "So, you saw the news yesterday? The tsunami took countless of lives." *He/She pauses and waits for your response.* What are you going to say?

If you think your interviewer was trying to calm/be friendly, so are so wrong dude. These are some questions to test a person's thinking and stuff like that. Don't give nonsense answers la kay. Say something impressive/meaningful/mature about all these kind of questions. It shows how good of an employee you are going to be to the organisation.

Jin gave me another example that I found quite interesting. Imagine yourself sitting for an interview for a toilet cleaner job in ExxonMobil, you interviewer asks you “So, how may Esso and Mobil you think there are in the Klang Valley?”

I was speechless when Jin asked me that question. I was like “What theeee….that kind of question is that?” A few hundred?”

*teeeattttttttt* Wrong answer. A more ‘intelligent’ answer would be “Roughly 1 in N meter/km radius.” Then again, no answer is wrong, just have to restructure your sentence to make yourself seem smart if you are already not.

Now, don't let your interviewer ask all the questions. You've got to be interactive man. Ask them questions regarding your job. For example, what kind of job, the scope, working more in a team/individual, who will you be reporting to, stuff like that. Ask for the working hours, pay, benefits and stuff like that too! (So if the pay and benefits turns you off, you know you don't have to waste time on them if you are called for the second interview.

5. Okay, end of the battle interview. But it's not the end of your battle yet. During the interview, make sure you know your interviewers. Send them a "Thank you for taking your time to interview me" email. Even if you did extremely well and you are damn confident in getting the job, this email takes you a step higher. Show them that you are sincerely and really into the job. Kind of shows your professionalism too. (Now that’s something I didn’t learn from APIIT! LOL!)

6. WEEE! So you got the job! Send your "Thank you for putting your confidence in me" email. Say stuff like "I'll be looking forward to working with you and your organisation". ....But erm, it's not the end of the world if you don't get a reply. Contact your interviewers if you don't have an answer in 7 working days. And if you didn't get the job, don't curse them la. Again, email them or something. Say that you are genuine and would love a chance to work with them in the future if there are openings. This way you would make a better impression and your interviews will keep you in mind for future interviews.

Ahh..I think that's about it. I think I can write a Dummies book on job hunting. LOL! Then again for someone with only little experience...ahahhaha forget it. I have yet to learn. Hope this long entry is insightful.

Okay...work started to pour in today. Still can manage la. Then again I'm not getting the full load of my work yet. A few of the reports I'm incharge of were not generated because some servers were down. ....down since befoer christmas too! I'm going to deal with tons of back log man. I hope my supervisor will approve my OT when I stay back. (...if not no need to stay back la...not getting paid...but ah...still need to finish my KPI! aka quota...*sign*)

Melissa came to brief me on my work again. While waiting for all the reports to load and stuff (I've got a really lousy PC, comparable to APIIT's Lab4 PC's) we chatted a little.

Mel: So what were you doing before this?
Me: Er.. you mean work?
Mel: Yep.
Me: Selling laptops?...ASUS laptops...
Mel: Wahhh Sales good what, how come stop one?
Me: ...oh... you mean er... I'm a fresh graduate.
Mel: *gaps!* *her eyes was staring at me like it were to pop out* *mouth ajar...a few bananas could fit in her mouth*
Me: *...eh what's that suppose to mean?*

I still don't know what reaction was that. Do I look that old?

Anyway, since I can't bring you to my cubie, let me bring my cubie to you!


My Cubicle


My temp display thingy. Will get a real plastic display when I shift to my new work floor. Floor 13, Room 88, Cubicle D


View of KLCC when I step out of the office.


Menara ExxonMobil. It's right infront of you (opposite the KLCC park) when you step out to the KLCC fountain area.

Before I forget, Happy Birthday Ying Ying! Hope you are having a blast over there! And Happy Birthday to Alvin too!!

Another thing, How to donate to theSun Tsunami Emergency Supplies Fund?
Pay directly into Maybank (Account no: 5143 0141 2093) or though ATM or over the counter at any Maybank branch. You also can send your donations to
theSun, 4th floor, Lot 6,
Jalan 51/217, Section 51,
46050, Petaling Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia.

If you have old clothes, shoes, mattresses, and etc that you would like to donate, you can also drop them at any Giant supermarket and Guardian Pharmacy. They will be given to the Tsunami victims thought the Red Crescent society.

Now people, donate even if it's only RM1. It helps. People with their own business, donate more also la kays, don't be so kiam siap, give and let give. If you still have the 'aiyah, no money la, business damn broke liua', well donate more la, got tax rebate ma. And for individuals like me that don’t know where our own money runs to, well, a week of no shopping, clubbing, pubbing, cinemaing, karokeing, happy hour, facial, football, badminton or what ever wont kill la. Donate that money to the more needy. That’s a command! Whahahah just joking.

But I really hope this post makes your think again, if you are not already donating.

I'm doomed!

I was so bored at work today so I decided to send out emails to random people. I was happily exchanging emails with titles like 'Ho guai sien' and 'bored at work'. That made my day less boring, but...

A bit after 3.30pm, one of my colleagues Melissa (not my team leader but at the save level) came down to my PC and briefed me on some of her work that she was going to hand over to me. Halfway through explaining, messages telling me 'I've got mail' keep popping up. Melissa asked how come I had so much of email ....hehehe. You know what the worst part? Later through the briefing, we had to use my email as a part of my work process.... AHHHHH yeah, I had to open my inbox and there it was

RE: Ho guai sien
RE: Boringggg...
RE: Bored at work
RE.....

I just gave the worst impression ever! Someone kill me please!

*jumps jumps* My kor kor is BACK!!!!! WEEEEEEE!!!

Time comes, time goes. 2005 comes, 2004 goes. I would like to wish everyone a very Happy New Year!

I ended up at Atmosphere instead of Singapore. I was working you see, I was Mami-san selling my boys (Zhong, Gordon, Kevin, Kelvin, Adrian) to lonely ladies that need company for the night. HAHAHAHAHA ahhh I'm joking of course! I had a blast tho. Atmosphere was decorated with a lot of helium balloons. 'My boys' and I untied the balloons and breath in the helium... our voice became ...HAHAHAHA really funny. All of us got free party spray and stuff like that, that came in a party pack. There was a wrist LED blink blink thing in the party pack too! I love it!

Anyways, new year means new resolution. I taught about mine a lot these few days. My resolution?

1. My friends and I will be too busy work starting this year. So, my first resolution is to make sure I play catch up once in a while. I don't want to be a workaholic.

2. Keep focus. Don't stray.

3. Make time for dancing.

4. 50% of my pay goes to my mom (*cries cries* mommy ahhh 50% is a lot laaaa, you want me to die mehhhhh!!), a lot goes to my bills (I know, =( I have to pay my own bills now), my travelling and food expenses, ...that only leaves 12% of my pay for myself (yeeshh like EPF man). Damn little. So... I won't have money for shopping and partying anymore. My resolution, not to touch that 12%, I've got to save that up.

5. Don't fling money! If you get what I mean. Learn stuff on investments and how to make money work for me. Don't have to be Robert Kiyosaki style but Investment for Dummies will do.

And for my long term goals,

1. I give myself a maximun for 4 to 5 years to figure out what I want to study for my Masters. I need to know what I'm interested in. I don't want to study Software Engineering when I'm not even building software like in the job I'm at right now. More experience with other jobs and exposure to other stuff is a must for me inorder to decide.

2. Save save save SAVE up money enough for my down payment for my first home! WHAHAHAH this is a long long term goal. Will be very diffcult for me with only 12% of my pay =( Then a car of my own.

Hais... so I guess I won't be going for Sound of the Music after all. No money for that. Sad case. Anyone have advice for me?, money wise.

Quote of 2005 "Wan chin ka nan" (It's hard earning money)